"Jesse, three years ago, i got that life devastating phone call about you. i remember falling to the floor on a balcony in orlando and just breathing heavy & uncontrollably crying in front of people i didn't even know. (basically freaking the fuck out and crying and screaming.) today, three years ago i lost you. my bestfriend, my partner in crime, the demons of another who played well with mine. ive gotta say, this time of year always sucks because even to see how far ive come, you're not here to see it & we always spent these holidays together no matter where we lived or who we were dating at the time. sometimes i feel that i should have done so much more than i did for you and you would still be here. i still have that heartache, and that feeling is something i wish no one would ever have to feel. it hurts, and the pain stings incredibly deep. the conversations and memories play in my head over and over some days like marathons of home movies and they rip at my heart strings. i will admit, things do get easier. but hell, Jesse this is rough here without you. i miss your laugh and that smile, Jesse it lit up the whole world i swear. you shined so bright down here on earth, and you still shine even brighter in the sky. im always thinking about you, and im never going to stop missing you. i really hope you're not getting into too much trouble up there. im not there to bail your ass out. Always & Forever Loving You, Taylor" #3yearswithoutyou #feelslikeforever #imissyousomuch #alwaysthinkingofyou #neverforget #jesseanderson #mybestfriend #pic #restinparadise #restinpeace #rip #illloveyouforever #andalways #judgeme