#judgeme

To start. To finish.

The beauty is inbetween. Where the begining and end points do not matter, as the line defines the journey. Without the connections, the points are floting in undefinable space. What does wealth mean to a human body? The story of how that person arrived to that point, is what has meaning. The juice of the fruit. While the fibre itself is uninteresting triva. Don't get me wrong- the fibre has it's purpose. It's there so you can easily digest the whole situation.

So what is your juice? What is the flavor, sweetness, vitamins, and minerals of your framework? A resume is a corpse without the interview. Most people can list the factoids of their life. Job, family, location, schooling... but how did it all come to be? Why do these things matter?

This is where the heart comes in. Creating connections, giving meaning, and being fully accepting of everything that has and will occur. Only then we can make honey. Not just using the facts that are easy to talk about, but diving into the murky depths of unstirred marshes. From high to low, low to high- the present moment and flow of life. We must be ready for it all. To paint a complete picture there must be the the details from a linked-in profile and the context of a facebook timeline.

When I write or tell a story, I tend to struggle with the content rather than the context. I can be very general, vague, and have a hard time recalling specific examples. This limits the storytelling ability for the meaning to be fleshed out. Thinking back to my younger years, I believe I have thes issues because I disregarded my story. That my point of view was not worthy of being told, and my experience was not valid. Believing that I only needed to know the formula, and the variables didnt matter. Now I know you can't write a recipie with only directions and no ingredients.

I believe that as I write and speak more, my story will come forth. In the past, I would tend to freeze up and draw blanks when I felt pressure. No examples became availble to use. This is when I should have given myself space. Space to breathe, space to think, space to fail. Then to place the feeling, of the topic that needs to be talked about, in the fore front of my heart. Feeling it through and seeing what pops up from there. For example, if the topic is about heartbreak, placing that pain in plain sight- feeling that emotion fully. Revealing a beautiful memory, the one of your ex that sold the matching shoes you got them. It's as simple as that.