Cut You Like A Knife

As Sokrates tells it, your story begins the moment Eros enters you. That incursion is the biggest risk of your life. How you handle it is an index of the quality, wisdom and decorum of the things inside you. As you handle it you come into contact with what is inside you, in a sudden and startling way. You perceive what you are, what you lack, what you could be. What is this mode of perception, so different from ordinary perception that it is well described as madness? How is it that when you fall in love you feel as if suddenly you are seeing the world as it really is? A mood of knowledge floats out over your life. You seem to know what is real and what is not. Something is lifting you toward an understanding so complete and clear it makes you jubilant. This mood is no delusion, in Sokrates’ belief. It is a glance down into time, at realities you once knew, as staggeringly beautiful as the glance of your beloved. 

“What are we made of but hunger and rage?”

Who are you and why do i follow you

i am thinking about being a lady in court who keeps eyeing one of the knights, smiling at him softly when we pass each other in the hall, looking at his fingers fidget with the small bead on the pommel of his sword when i think he's not looking. knowing that it would be dangerous to talk to him; im sure i would fall terribly and deeply in love with him. but i keep looking for him in the crowds... gasping and cheering for him in tourneys... watching from a high window as he trains in the yard, his hair wet and his skin shiny.

People sometimes say that God becomes clearer in moments of suffering, but this is not necessarily true. What becomes clear is one's longing for God. Everything is stripped away, and very little else seems to matter.

Sex with a guy who’s pathetically obsessed with you but trying to act nonchalant since it’s just a “casual” hookup. But there’s nothing casual about his hands that are a little too shakey, gripping your flesh with a little too much devotion. There’s nothing casual about the way he says your name like a devout preacher.