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@studyingyam
intro post
heyo, the name's koi. im a bio major at [REDACTED] uni trying my damn best to scrape out my bachelor's
this will not be an aesthetic blog by any means, just an outlet for me to vent about class and such
happy studying π¦
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summer internship diaries
ive been here for almost 4 days now and i thought it would be nice to keep a running diary to look back on this time in my life. i guess thats the purpose of any diary though, right? first impressions have been great. the campus is beautiful and im lowkey getting gilmore girls vibes. everyone ive met has been really nice and its been awesome to be around people with similar interests and goals as me. the first meeting my cohort had altogether (10 of us), the co-director told us that he doesn't want any kind of imposter syndrome because we were all hand-selected and deserve to be here. that was really reassuring. adjusting to being 2600 miles away from home has been hard in some ways. the time zone change is definitely kicking my ass. i also fell asleep on the phone last night with tanner, which we rarely do. i miss him so much. i also miss my dad. im grateful he has been so open about how proud of me he is for putting myself out there. right now im waiting in the intern office for my mentor to arrive. im not sure what ill be doing today but hopefully well talk a bit more about my project. i have been reading papers because i really want to start strong in case i start to flag towards the end. after all this is 2 months, more like a marathon than a sprint. we still have to narrow things down, but my topics are biochemical and morphological traits in eelgrass over time, as well as biomass/percent cover of macroalgae in the nearby harbor. theres a wastewater treatment plant so the groundwater has been very high in nutrients. ive never done anything with isotopes before so im kind of nervous but excited. its also very heavy data analysis and it seems like all the other interns have taken stats but me so i feel like im behind unfortunately. i know if i put my head down and do the work like i usually do, ill do great. honestly, i think im going to struggle more with the social aspects of the program, but hopefully that changes.
first day back! hopefully it goes well
fall 2025 wrap-up
it's over!!!!!!! future-me, here's the run-down:
final grades:
ochem: A!!!!!
physics: B
earth science: A
im so stoked to have gotten that A, like are you kidding ??? this is the class i initially changed my major over, like i was so scared to take ochem and i conquered it. i have come so far in the past year. i had fun taking it with my friends and even though i wanted to kill my lab partner half the time, im gonna miss this little stem group.
transfer apps!! i got into my top schools!!! very early acceptances so im stoked about that. im gonna accept admission/do the deposit and hope to god i can snag on-campus housing in februrary. and now that im in, i can chill out next semester and enjoy myself more!! this semester was really tough because the coursework just did not click at times! but next semester im taking ecology <3 saved the best for last! and im taking it with my favorite professor everrrrrr YIPPEE
work is also going to be picking up AND i can hopefully get that second installment of my scholarship. things are looking up and even though mentally i am going through a rough patch, the holidays will be over soon :)))
it's finals week and i want to paint the ceiling rn ππππππππππ i totally failed my last ochem exam and if i fail the final too i have to retake the class next semester and then id have to push back my graduation. i feel like i practice and practice and the reactions just arent clicking. i hate multi-step synthesis so much
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i once again wasted most of the day before cramming everything at night. i was stressed about my physics lab but i ended up working on it from 11pm - 3:30am and finished the whole thing :)))) it's not even due til next sunday but i didnt want to have to worry about it. now i dont need to do any more formal lab reports !!! and im on track to just skip the last lab of the semester cause i remember at the beginning he said he drops a check-off so some people just ditch the last one if they did the rest of em. im planning to do corrections during the break for the ones i already submitted.
now i just need to worry about my five billion ochem labs. jk it's just three rn but it's terrible to think about
18/18 on that physics lab yayyyy. and ochem exam got moved back a week. tomorrow's priorities are solidifying conservation of energy & momentum, then doing some ir and nmr, then if i have time try to relearn circular momentum and kepler's laws. but honestly as long as i pass this physics exam ill be okay cause i can do the reflection and get up to half the points i miss back.
it's not the end of the world if i dont get to ir and nmr during the day cause i COULD do it after the exam but then im gonna end up getting like 3 hours of sleep. i will remain open to the possibility that things will go well!!!!!
november 16, 2025
the semester is almost over and i feel very overwhelmed unfortunately. im presenting at a conference soon but it's sandwiched right between two exams :( i feel like i didnt manage my time well last month so im suffering. but theres no point regretting it now. i watched frankenstein last night and i really liked it! i want to watch it again when things slow down a bit. that might not be til after finals though. im ready to be done with these classes.
wednesday morning
update:
my abstract was accepted!! im going to my first undergrad conference!!! yippee!!
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As you progress in your education and perhaps begin doing research projects, there becomes this ideal of "independent research", the kind of thing that turns you into a professional rather than a student. And I'm beginning to think that this is a bit of a misnomer in how people interpret this phrase and the idea behind it.
In graduate school, you are training to become an independent researcher, that's basically the whole idea. The common ideal archetype is the "multiple first-author papers grad student who never needs help nor asks questions". And while being able to lead a project to the natural conclusion of a paper is an integral skill, it's rarely done alone or entirely independently. In truth, research is typically very collaborative and it's rare to work alone.
My more recent interpretation of becoming an "independent researcher" is more about learning how to be responsible for your own work. This means taking the initiative to see it complete and correct. This can look like asking for advice from other experts, teaching collaborators so they can get up to speed, or double checking that your work is consistent with other literature/logic.
Obviously this is not an overnight process, and it's something I've only recently could put into words. Learning how to do all of this is hard, and I'm in the middle of this frankly scary and painful transition.
will be updating this blog a lot today
anyway, fall 2024 favorites
animals: crocodiles and alligators
colors: sage green and black
movie: pride and prejudice (2005)
band: green day
song: vampire's curse by koffin kats
class this semester: biotech
food: shabu shabu
spring 2025 favorites
animal: elephant seals
colors: sage green and gray
movie: pride and prejudice (2005)
band: green day
song: heaven knows im miserable now by the smiths
class this semester: chem
food: bobaaa
fall 2025 favorites
animal: elephant seals
colors: sage and forest green
movie: pride and prejudice (2005)
band: men i trust
song: the ballad of michael valentine by the killers
class this semester: earth science
food: chicken cutlet curry
october 2025 updates
i realized i havent updated this blog in like 3 months, so here is how things are going!
my internship was amazing! i made a good impression on everyone in the lab and i did well at the symposium. i stayed on to volunteer after the program ended in august, but the grad students vouched for me to get paid to help out, so my pi is hiring me!!!
conferences update: i applied to a state one and have not heard back yet, but there is a local symposium soon that ill be practicing at :)
scholarship update: i got both of the ones i applied for in the spring! one of them is in 2 installments, so as long as i keep my grades up this semester, i should get the second half next year.
transfer applications: in progress! need to double check about classes im taking next semester. current semester update: going way better than i thought it would! im taking physics and ochem (which ive been dreading for years) and a fun earth science class to be full-time. i was in such a bad slump since i got home from an international trip the day before the semester started :,) but i managed to pull it together enough to get As on my first ochem and physics exams! so i am feeling more motivated to finish strong yayyyy
other thoughts: i feel like now that im being hired on in the lab, i should start another volunteering gig somewhere else. i always feel like im not doing enough. i also told myself id start working out this semester but i have not done that yet! i would like to be in better shape so i can go on hikes with my friends before i move up north.
to summarize! still on a roll academically, putting myself out there in terms of research, looking to better myself in other aspects now.
looks inside procrastination -> it's anxiety -> looks inside anxiety -> it's fear -> looks inside fear -> it's shame
Surely these circumstances will improve with additional shame
Martin Aagaard - "Ship in the Moonlight"
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update on my research summer program!
the field work was very fun and very tiring :3 i did some things wrong but it was my first time and im learning :) and the grad students are so nice to me and the other interns. 3 weeks done, 5 to go. it's really flying by
I need to drag myself out of bed and go to work ie play with my mosquitoes but I'm too busy. Scratching my million zillion mosquito bites.
and also every inch of my body is sore and/or bruised. due to my adventures
adventure movies about academics do NOT prepare you for how much field work will kick your ass
