My Daily Hot Mess

Thank you for letting it snow today. It couldn't be a true Chicago winter without it.

Chicken Enchiladas! (Taken with instagram)

Food!! With @darealteamkaykay and @kylaashley21 (Taken with instagram)

I hate feeling emotionally unstable, especially when I'm in a public place... It's an awkward feeling that I have within that isn't making me feel comfortable. I believe it comes from 2 things though. First, my financial status isn't good, now that I'm no longer working. I'm somewhat confident that someone will contact me (hopefully through email though) for a job opportunity. Second is the fact that I'm making something so small a big deal (like always). I feel like I have to be emotionally connected with someone and my feelings just can conform to what's going on so far and wants to speed things up. I feel like the last time something like this happened, I ruined it. I don't want to ruin what I may "possibly" have now... But, how?

Really?! Why are you "woke"?! SMH (Taken with instagram)

The Mels and I (Taken with instagram)

Wait... WHAT?! (Taken with instagram)

Lunch with friends!! (Taken with instagram)

Late night snack!! :o) (Taken with instagram)

Ah, today's morning view! <3 (Taken with instagram)

I love my kids... (Taken with instagram)

So I wear my heart on my sleeve... I admit it. I easily care, I easily like... I can easily love. Sure, sometimes it's a disadvantage but that's just who I am. Throughout life, I've experienced people take advantage of that. It hurts, but... I don't know. Maybe I just don't want to learn my lesson. I like to believe that maybe someone will take what I have and actually cherish it. I'M a hopeless romantic. I just wanna find someone that can see and take what I have to give. My heart may be bruised up, it may be scarred, it may be hurt, but it's still pumping with love. Is that too much to ask for?