Date: Friday, July 10, 2026
Location: Kansas City, Missouri
Weather: partly cloudy with a chance of eff this
Weather Inside: Rushed, reflective, emotionally tender.
Currently Playing: I Knew It, I Know You — Taylor Swift
Today started at full speed. I practically hit the ground running because it was already time for my phone appointment with the boys' doctor. Thankfully, she was running a little behind, which gave me just enough time to get settled before we started.
I picked up groceries for the boys today, with another grocery run still to come. It wasn't anything exciting, but it's one of those quiet ways I get to love them every day.
The biggest thing I accomplished today wasn't on a checklist. I finally gave life to an idea that's been living in my head for a long time. The Amber Archive officially has a home at stillnotamber.tumblr.com. It feels less like I made a Tumblr and more like I opened the front door to a place where I can keep all the little moments that are too easy to lose.
The doctor's delay gave me just enough breathing room this morning.
Being able to provide groceries and take care of my boys.
Finally beginning a project I've dreamed about for a long time.
Movement: my entire body is sore lol
Energy: Started the day in a sprint.
Mood: Productive, hopeful, and a little emotionally heavy.
📖 Reading read with Elliott
🎬 Watching: I Will Find You
I Knew It, I Know You — Taylor Swift (on repeat in my head all day)
"I hit the ground running... quite literally."
Creating The Amber Archive and finally giving this idea a place to live. Every archive begins with a single page.
I keep thinking about Sixteen Candles. Except instead of sixteen, it's thirty-eight.
Another birthday has come and gone, and I can't shake the feeling of being forgotten. It's not about wanting a big celebration or gifts. It's the quiet ache of wondering whether you crossed anyone's mind at all.
It makes me want to become smaller. Quieter. To stop reaching outward and pour everything I have into my boys, because they're the place where my love never feels misplaced. They are the constant that reminds me I matter, even on days when the rest of the world feels very far away.
I'm choosing to archive this feeling instead of letting it define me. Maybe someday I'll read this again and remember not only how lonely today felt, but also that I kept going anyway.
Today reminded me why I wanted to build The Amber Archive in the first place.
Not every day is extraordinary. Some days are grocery carts, doctor's appointments, songs looping in your head, and feelings you can't quite explain. Those days deserve to be remembered too.
Maybe that's what this archive is really about: proving that an ordinary life is still a life worth documenting.
1. Continue customizing The Amber Archive.
2. Pick up the remaining groceries.
3. Write Archive Entry #0004.
Stored safely for Future Amber. ❤️
