Booked Sessions

          “ L e a v i n g him? Why the fuck would I do that? ” he isn’t sure if he should be putting on the defensive or consider it an actual option. There’s nothing to consider. “ It’s just an ISSUE. Not something worth leaving him over. I mean, shit, he looks out for me… takes care of me. He shows he cares in his own way… I just – LOOK this is about MY constant need to feel pretty and get attention. It’s my problem, NOT HIS. ”

          “ ACTUALLY, if I went to college I would have had the funds for that. I just didn’t bother. I had this crazy idea of having my own record business. ”

          When Stephen makes mention of having a musician cousin, Gabriel’s first thought is to try to place anyone he may have heard of with the same last name as him. No guitarist comes to mind. “ Yeah,  w e l l , maybe I could’a signed him onto my label and given us BOTH a career. ”            He didn’t know what Stephen was trying to get at. Perseverance from adversity or some shit. “ Nah, dude. Guess I’d have to lose my parents to be great. — ANYWAY, you ever do any kinky shit lately? ”

     “Well...” Not kinky, but... “A friend of mine from college an’ I actually jus’ started tryin’... datin’, an’ we jus’ actually, uhh... y’know ... f’ th’ first time...” A small, almost happy smile found it’s way onto his normally sober face. 

     He rarely talked to anyone about sex. But recently, it was just so...  s l o w  and SWEET and genuine and... fun for him. He had to say something, something like,

          “ Oh, cool. I had me one of those. Except it was more her digging having me  a r o u n d  and shit. — And the money didn’t go to college. ” he’ll run his index finger beneath chin. The interest didn’t waver, though the smile seemed to fade. “ I mean, it’s good to know I could still be a fucking THERAPIST if I wanted to be — which I don’t. ”

     Stephen laughed. “It’s a lot of schooling---I don’t think I’d be able d’do it in this day an’ age.” He was having trouble convincing his oldest son to apply to college with how competitive it was, so the idea of school wasn’t a realistic idea, in his opinion, for anyone. 

     “But anythin’s possible. Y’know, I had a cousin who’s mother died when he was real young, an’ he was passed along through our relatives, but he became an excellent guitarist---he made a livin’ touring.” 

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Name: ChristineFC: Gillian AndersonRelation to muse: Lover(?), ClientPast, Present, Future: PastHave you ever played this character before?: No

My dream headcanon right now is Stephen flying out to meet @nctfree‘s Gabriel in person, and they fucking party it up, and Stephen like analyzing Gabriel in a party scene, but then Stephen getting kronk later in the night

     “Yeah, but what’s the point? It’s gonna happen anyway...”

Sometimes it's hard to get in depth with your muse and their backstory, because you can't figure out how to bring those things up with others. Here are a couple of starters intended to make things a little more personal!

"What's holding you back?"

"I'm not comfortable with this conversation."

"Will you /ever/ be comfortable with this conversation?"

"Let me in sometime!"

"It's not that easy, you know."

"Help me understand."

"It's hard to connect with someone when all they do is push you away."

"Why are you always so cold?"

"Why are you always so happy?"

"Are you really happy now?"

"Who hurt you this badly to make you this way?!"

"What, did your ex mess you up that badly?!"

"Why do you keep fighting it any time you feel?"

"It's a problem, I get it."

"This is all kinds of messed up."

"That's not exactly a good coping method."

"So what happened, with your parents, really?"

"What was your childhood like?"

"Everyone has at lest a little bit of mommy/daddy issues. It's nothing to be ashamed of."

"My parents aren't exactly perfect models, either."

"You were bullied? What for?"

"Was it hard? Coming out, I mean."

"You can't just run away all the time."

"You can't just hide all the time."

"Are you still thinking about them?"

"I'm not the enemy here. But this makes me wonder who the real one is for you."

"Is the reason you're so cold and defensive because you feel threatened?"

"How long has it been since you last spoke to them?"

"You never talk about it, why?"

"How come you're so different around them?"

"It's like you don't have a care or worry in the world."

"You seem so perfect. I don't get it."

"What was your ex like?"

"I don't think I was ever good enough for them."

"Are you not comfortable being intimate?"

"Why don't you feel comfortable being intimate?"

"Letting someone see you that vulnerable, it's a scary thing."

"Are you scared of being hurt?"

"Have you ever been taken advantage of?"

"Why are you afraid of saying I love you?"

"I never understood how someone could say those words so easily."

"You're hurting others the way you've been hurt in the past, don't you think that's ironic?"

"You use people to make yourself feel better."

"I'm scared of being used again..."

"Losing someone isn't easy, but you're making it harder than it needs to be."

"How long has it been since you lost them?"

"You're too attached."

"I'm not attached, I'm just comfortable with what I'm familiar to."

"Maybe the real reason you're so controlling is because, deep down you'd rather have them in your grasp than lose them."