MarsStar

Absolutely not ok but posting here cuz I don't want my friends to worry 🤪

I wish alcøhøl didn't have calories

Just wanna be loved like I love

My fears have come true. I was always worried that once I start testosterone my dysphoria would get worse (due to the higher chance of passing.) Now that I've had a small voice drop, sometimes people call me sir and that feels amazing. The only thing is, it hurts a lot more to be called miss now. It makes me feel sick to my stomach. My chest dysphoria is worse because if it weren't for these DDD cup boobs, I might actually stand a chance. The need for top surgery is so much higher now but I'm still not any closer to my goal. Also being mid-transition in this political climate makes me feel so unsafe. If anyone thought for a second about why I "seem off" they would be able to clock me. I live in a red state. I hope I find a way to get surgery soon or I dont know what will happen

Had my appointment to check my t levels and everything looks good, so no adjustments needed. Im 14 weeks on now and still feeling pretty good other than my throat. Im not sure if im getting sick or if this is normal pain associated with the voice changes but hopefully it passes soon. Its quite uncomfy haha

GUYS i have my first chin hair. its only been 6 weeks that is so bomb

Im getting so impatient tbh

Good afternoon friends. Do you ever post on reddit? Seems like every single person on there thinks they know way more than you about everything. Its such an incredibly toxic environment and I keep forgetting why I never use it. Apparently 100s of strangers on the internet know that I actually eat way more than I say I do, and that's why I'm having trouble with weight loss. Because overeating is obviously the ONLY reason anyone would be overweight, right? FFS its so infuriating. I just want someone to hear me.