use third han—hmm

ive been thinking about this for a while, about how the way jax is treated by some fans irl is a really bitter reflection of her status as a closeted trans woman. it feels like it adds to the tragedy of it in a way. i see so many fans vitriolically referring to her as a man, refusing to think any further and only thinking they see some sort of predator and abuser. insisting she is irredeemable and should be shunned by the only people she has in her life. jax isn't real but even so, her actions are treated as if they are. "jax is just gooseworx's favourite" yeah. why do you think that is? what is she putting of herself in jax? why do you automatically assume this means the transfem creator must be a violent and abusive person instead of anything else? why do you say you want to see more messy female art but make an exception in this case? the whole thing feels like metatextual performance art.

I kinda like the idea of jax becoming a cautionary tale of what happens when you let dysphoria and self hatred eat you alive. I've met so many of him IRL in my own circles. I think people need to hear it. I need more characters who eat themselves alive and actually have to suffer the consequences of not choosing to be better. It's pretty refreshing to see a different and nuanced take on dysphoria and how it doesn't always manifest the way you would expect.

"if Jax is a trans woman she's still an abuser so she's bad representation so the show is transphobic" you're an idiot. you want your blorbos to be perfect ideal angels, I want my blorbos to be realistic, nuanced, flawed human beings, we are not the same. I LIKE that she's messy and fucked up and problematic, I think it's a realistic depiction of how a lot of repressed and traumatized trans women are. I think the show goes to great lengths to explore how and why she is the way she is, and to evoke sympathy for this kind of person. it doesn't excuse her actions but it does make them understandable. and I think the fact women like that deserve sympathy is an idea worth stating and worth shouting. yes she's a bully and she hurt everyone around her and that may never change. she still deserves sympathy.