Loving you

there’s something about living life deliberately…wearing clothes that you actually want to and that you feel reflect you and your style not just because you’ve had them for years and don’t know what else you would throw on….listening to songs and creating playlists that excite you and represent your actual mood not just listening to songs that you’ve had downloaded for years that don’t make you feel anything special anymore…it’s VERY easy to stay with what you’re comfortable and it might take a bit of experimenting before you find what feels like a deliberate choice that reflects more of YOU but it’s absolutely worth the leap of faith you may have to convince yourself to make in order to stop feeling like a passenger in your own life

Thank you for loving me in exactly the right way.

Its okay to find love in hobbies instead of in a romantical relationship, its okay to find love in community, helping people, yourself, friends or family instead of in a significant other. All these kinds of love are valid and don't make you any less of a person, even if you're not in a relationship at the moment. Your value of being lovable doesn't rely on you having a romantical relationship, you are always loveable.

I learned a lot from you, that’s why I love you

“People are inherently terrible” no!!! Have you ever seen a child wait for their friend while they tie their shoelaces? Have you ever known someone who would bring hurt squirrels and rabbits and mice to the nearest vet just so it doesn’t suffer? Have you seen someone grieve? Have you ever read something that hit your heart like a freight train? Have you looked at the stars and felt an unexplainable joy? Have you ever baked bread? Have you shared a meal with a friend? Have you not seen it? All the love? All the good? I know it’s hard to see sometimes, I know there’s pain everywhere. But look, there’s a child helping another up after a hard fall. Look, there’s someone giving their umbrella to a stranger. Look, there’s someone admiring the spring flowers. Look, there’s good, there’s good, there’s good. Look!!!!

last night as i was falling asleep i was thinking about the beauty of loving someone in any form and just wanting things with them without any ulterior motives or any other goal. like wanting to be around someone because you love them and want them in your life, not because they can do something for you, wanting to make someone food or make things for them in general not because you expect something in return but because you want them to eat well and to be happy. wanting to hold someone just because you want them close and want to make them feel safe and warm. wanting to wash someones hair because you love them and want to take care of them. anyway i think its really sweet and beautiful how a lot of times when we love someone we do things like this

Hey, stop scrolling for a second. How are you doing? It’s so cold outside today, the sky is white and there is a chance of snow, but it’s warm inside. I can put the kettle on or I can heat some milk for a hot chocolate. Do you want to borrow a hoodie to keep you warm? Let’s sit down together for a while. I’ve got some crochet to do, why don’t we put on your comfort movie and we can watch it together? Or you can choose a book off of my shelves and I’ll give a warm blanket to snuggle under whilst you read. We can just talk or sit in silence if you prefer, we can just let time pass. Just remember that you’re safe here. And you can always come back.

most of the time, your embarrassing moments were long forgotten. you’re less awkward than you really feel. people project their bad day onto you, it’s not personal. no one is judging you badly, let alone as badly as you judge yourself. most of the time, negative & anxious thoughts aren’t true, and you're more loved than you feel.

it doesn’t matter. you will still have fun baking a distastrous looking bread loaf. you will still have fun painting a technically bad painting. you will get happy brain chemicals dancing like a weirdo. be bad on purpose.

I love those autumn mornings when you can smell the air and it’s a little bit cold but not too cold and there are leaves everywhere

Nothing compares to the light I’ve gained from loving you.