Social anxiety is not necessarily having huge panic attacks when you’re in a crowd.
It is, a lot of the time, little things that are usually easy just being complete hell on earth, like:
Crying just thinking about having to give a presentation in class
Not playing games or participating in fun activities (even with your friends) because you’re afraid you’ll be terrible at it and people will judge you
Having to rehearse your order at the restaurant a hundred times
And counting your money 10 times to make sure you have enough (even though you have plenty)
Being overly concerned about the way you look because you think people are judging you
Feeling anxious every time someone laughs because they’re definitely laughing at you oh god
Getting nervous about coming late to school because you’ll have to get in class and everyone will look at you
Crying a little when someone says you’re wrong or screams at you (especially in front of other people)
Not knowing what to talk about even with friends that have a lot of things in common with you
Feeling uncomfortable being in the front row in class or at the cinema because you think everyone is staring at you
Thinking and rehearsing for 5 minutes the simple things you’ll have to say in class (like “here” or “yes, I did my homework”)
Being afraid that the teacher will ask you something in class
Being embarrassed of something you did or said literally months ago (that probably wasn’t so bad)
Pushing people away when they show any type of interest because they’re definitely making fun of you and actually hate you
Going out of your way to avoid someone in public because you actually cannot talk to them
Biting you tongue or lips or clenching your fists or digging your nails into you leg when you’re embarrassed
Being scared of being alone with only 1 person because you don’t know what to do or say
Constantly hating yourself because you can’t do easy things like having a small conversation
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