Generally extremely selective to non-sharing selfshipper / dreamshipper! Proshippers are asked to DNI. I'm 25 years old, and I use any pronouns except for she/her or pronouns for women only. Married IRL!
Pinned post! Kinda just copying from Main for now, as I want to focus on selfshipping more than a pinned you feel me?
Anyways, My fidelity list
My boundaries
New icon credit!
As for a DNI, the simple version is no proshippers, no pedos/necros/zoos, No bigots, Don't interact if you're here to start shit, don't interact if I've blocked you (and if you're going to, might as well use anon), No anti-endogenics, Or against anything to do with my identity. Hate following is stupid.
Main is @starfallenfae - I use selfshipping to cope, and seeing as I'm in a real bad situation this goes double time. I do not care if you think I'm delusional, no reality checks. I will block. I'm part of a mixed origins system. I may have delusions involving my f/os, unless it is harming me or another person please do not reality check me - Me simply having a delusion is not harmful.
This blog will be sfw but if you want access to the nsfw version, and are +18 feel free to request off anon. I'll provide it once it's set up.
Uh yeah! My main f/os can be found here; I do also selfship with OC's but I haven't set up my original works blog quite yet, so I don't know how much I'll talk about them. I recommend following the tags for the characters you want to see content for, because I'm not gonna make seperate blogs again I don't think. While they do all exist seperately, unless otherwise specified, I'm just not interested in that hassle. I like having everything in one place.
If you have any questions, feel free to ask!~
Examples of harmful delusions under the cut because I kind of think it might be helpful! /genuine
So, a non-harmful delusion would be believing my f/o can talk to me for example - This isn't going to cause anyone harm, but it might make some people uncomfortable. Which is also okay, but part of why I give the disclaimer.
A harmful delusion is, for example, believing that if my f/o dies, I need to die too. I say this with all the care in the world because I have seen people post this and my heart goes out to them, but that is actively harmful and dangerous.
Another example would be believing it is okay to harass doubles, or post content that is targetted like that - This is harmful because it hurts another person, and harassment isn't okay which I think most of us know and agree with.
So, for another example, say character dies in source - Claiming anyone & everyone, myself included needs to immediately drop them or perish is inherently harmful to everyone.
I'm not saying I've had these situations happen, but I am listing some examples to try and illustrate the difference between something being weird but harmless, and something being harmful and dangerous.. Because a non-professional dispelling any delusions, hallucinations, or other forms of psychosis can be harmful in of itself. Professionals are trained to figure out which ones are harmful vs weird but harmless all the time, whereas most folks who don't live with psychosis tend to get weirded out or uncomfortable when you exhibit symptoms.
Here's some examples I HAVE had that are harmful:
Believing my f/os will only love me if I do [maladaptive coping mechanism]
Paranoia about people becoming doubles on purpose
Being convinced [nonsharing f/o] would leave me for [more popular double]
These things can happen, and they are harmful even if not all of them are dangerous. The difference is, if you told me during an episode that for example, Alastor doesn't care about me and stop pretending he does (no one would I know.) This would cause extreme distress for a non-harmful delusion/psychosis. With harmful delusions/psychosis if you said "I understand why you think Alastor would want you to do [maladaptive coping mechanism] but I think he'd prefer you do [self care] because he cares about you" It would have the opposite effect does that make sense?
If it isn't hurting anyone, dispelling it often causes more distress to the individual and isn't considered worth it where I live. If it IS harmful, it is better to risk causing a little distress to keep people safe and from harm! ^^
I hope this is helpful for someone, but if you're ever unsure, gentle suggesting that X line of thinking/commentary/whatever may be harmful is okay. Askimg me to analyze it when I am doing better is okay. It just runs the risk of me not agreeing with your take. But, I mean I live with psychosis and I don't want to have harmful or dangerous situations come out of it, which is why I say something in my post that probably comes off a little contradictory to some.
If I ask for a reality check, have at 'er. If not but it is clearly harmful or dangerous or both, please politely point it out on anon. Thank you. 🫂💕🍪
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In another universe, I can sit next to you while we watch a movie and listen to you rant about your love of dolls, fun facts about the movie, or just anything that happens to pop into your mind. I'd be able to watch you in awe and see the spark in your eyes light up. In this universe, I'll patiently wait until that day, thousands of miles away. I could listen to you all day.
Feeling like I should edit the f/o list because it's too long? And also,, considering Sonar. But want to rewatch a dispatch playthrough since I'm too broke to play through myself - To confirm whomst.. because I know there's a good chance we'll be editing it again.
I have also figured out I am okay sharing Flambae! Just in case! ^^ If he stays (and he probably will tbh) then yes we can share! :D
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Sksksks lil bro saw my wallpaper which'll be below the cut and went "Flambae? Really?" EXCUSE ME LEAVE ME ALONE
He asked me why I wasn't into Sonar and I nearly fell over because Sonar is my type too 🥀 "You gonna eat those twinks?" Ough. Lil bro clocked my monster loving ass.
I did NOT make this, I kinda just googled around but I think this is off pinterest? I intend to replace it with my own collage but haven't had time.
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How’s your thinking up things for you and Flambae been going? Did you figure out how you’d meet? What kinds of dates he’d take you on? Maybe the small ways he’d show affection for you?
If not, how about you and Blazer? Is your S/I for her yourself, too? Are you a hero? What are some of the things that draw you to her?
Feel free to gush about either! 😼
- @emberheroships
You get BOTH and you're gonna love it probably even if this takes forever to post LOL
So yes I've been thinking about Flambae, and how we'd meet, and I think it's going to give people secondhand embarassment I won't lie. As for dates, I think he'd be the type of dude to let me choose dates out the house and plan them, until I took him to a local spot that allegedly has food from his culture (headcanon afghan + latino mix) and then he tells me how americanized it is and we leave only for him to cook me REAL FOOD and it's so good 🤤 he doesn't get mad at me, he's just kind of like "If you want to try something tell me, I'll make it idiot" y'know? You see the vision? Flambae is 100% an affectionate cruelty person and that suits me just fine. He's a little awkward with tears at first I think, but quickly recovers. His go to is legit to just.. start cooking whatever is easiest at the time, because "You can't be sad while you eat" Given that we know he cares about family, I think he honestly would have a lot of emotional intelligence and awareness he's just shy and hides it behind his tough guy persona. But then when it comes to me he's a little lost, and that's okay <3
As for Blazer.. Our self insert follows generally the same rubric regardless of which universe it is: Newly retired hero due to an injury, retired young, JUST picked up by SDN and... Fired. Within the first week. Moved to a different division. A promotion, but still.. Blazer later admits the move was so she'd be free to ask me out instead of dating within a power dynamic that HR would dislike if they found out about. Blazer.. Blazer is the gentle, easy kind of love I haven't gotten to experience due to complex mental health and unhealthy relationships. She's the idealized relationship, and while yes we may fight, it's not going to be dramatic. Our friends think we're boring but that's okay. We're happy to be the boring couple.
I didn't wanna put too much and potentially overwhelm but I'm just fleshing out the story for our meet cute in my head, before I write it out haha. I might ask my friend to edit it so y'all don't have to read my non-edited, non-proof read stuff LOL (she offered and really enjoys formatting apparently so if she is okay with it I'll get her to do that!) We'll see though, I'm debating putting it on A03 because on the one hand hell yeah and on the other ough, no,,
I have a feeling I'm not gonna like the answer here but it's probably important to ask.. does anyone else almost treat their F/o's like an imaginary friend sometimes? Including OC f/os of course.
Idk, sometimes I like talking to them like they're able to hear me as I am, and telling them about my day and stuff. Or talking through problems with them.
I know I'm a psychotic selfshipper - Meaning I experience psychosis, not that I'm a slasher or smth - So it may be related but.. idk there is a nice comfort to feeling like they're able to hear me, even if they don't actually respond.
Feeling kinda low tonight so I thought I'd make a personal affirmations post <3
Feel free to skip this if you're not interested of course! I'll catch you in the next one if that is the case! 😌🫶
This one is Firestar only & will focus on dudes!
I didn't include dad but he'd probably purchase some adult beverages at the tavern.
Flambaé would hype me up when I started to feel sad and or dysphoric. I genuinely think he'd be so supportive, in his own way. I definitely think instead of talking he'd make food for us, and because it'd be meant to be shared he'd insist he couldn't eat it by himself. ❤️🔥
Alastor would still care about me and love me in his own way, when I shy away from romance and stereotypical relationships, and kind of just want companionship - Yes, we are both bad people, but we're two bad people who found something in one another that made hell a little more bearable. We may never reach redemption, but we will always have one another. 🦌
John would make me birthday cake pancakes, and they'd be awful, and undercooked, but they'd be exactly what I needed in that moment, and he'd still love me when I pointed out they were undercooked, and he'd sit on the couch with me and put on a sad movie, so I could pretend I was crying to that instead of whatever upset me at the time, and he'd watch it with me. 🧼
Pantalone would either walk me through the place where mora gets minted, and give me a grand tour, explaining in detail the process and all that goes through it, or he'd spend his mora to purchase me some new books, or a new experience, or to visit a mueseum or similar establishment. He may not be good at comfort, but he'd still try through expensive distractions. 🪙
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I literally went to bed thinking about cuddling Chad so uh. Yep. He also got assigned a plushie, "Oh that one absolutely came from him" and that's the highest honor a f/o can be granted LOL /silly
