this was originally a "BAH" blog

last edited : august 1 2026

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welcome. this is a vent blog run by @starlight-chickens (main is @corruptgrail if you want to know ig)

as the title says, this was supposed to be a "BAH" blog but really we didn't really launch that blog ever so I am repurposing it.

you can call us Starlight, Stuffie, Hen. pronouns are it/they/he I suppose.

yeah you can vent in the inbox if you want. or send kind messages. or just ask whoever's at front how was their day. we're happy to talk to people most of the time.

boundaries and stuff under this cut.

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last time it was ice cream. today it's an energy drink.

I hate it. I really hate it. that cycle of "fine" then "I know how to kayemmess and I could do it" to "fine I guess" and rince and repeat forever every week of our life. doesn't even seem to have a trigger half the time.

I wanted to play today. I turned the laptop on. sat. stared at it. turned it off again after two minutes. went back to bed. tried to pick up my switch. poked at the game. gave up after a minute. thought about drawing. didn't even pick up our sketchbook. just sat back in bed and wallowed.

at least I went and bought shampoo today.

i hate being a persecutor. :(.

I just. If i was a singlet I'd be allowed to self destruct and it'd be okay. I just want to self destruct. Why am I evil just because everyone else doesn't want to. It's *my* fucking body too. I should get to chose sometimes.

it doesn't help that one of my headmates told the therapist about me and i got labeled as a fucking. *Problem part*. Like im some fucking faulty nonvital organ to be removed. im as much of a person as the others. is it such a crime to not want to be better?

not wanting to get better doesn't mean you're "evil". persecutor is also not an inherently bad term

sone of our prosecutors would relate to you at least partially.