The Gentlewoman

Been really getting into something called doing whatever I want lately

Turns out some people really hate when you do this

i may have my father's worst traits but i am more ethical & virtuous with them than him

sorry for being a prophet and a genius and an angel and a poet and a lover & yearner like it's my fault..

i'm not saying people shouldn't be reading more books, but i do think it's funny how many people thinking "reading comprehension" is just about how good you are at reading books and not like. criticial thinking skills.

mom said it’s my turn to be ached for, to have someone feel a stab of hunger for me, to feel nourishment at the sight of me. give it now

GOD i can't fucking do ANYTHING WRONG (throws beer bottle at the wall but it bounces off and lands perfectly right side up)

i will never get over the way time and the environment behaved so differently when i was a kid. a saturday afternoon felt so vast and long. i could get absorbed into the colours and atmosphere of a tv show. even the food was better. even the air

grabs your hand. you've had enough plot and exposition and character development lately im taking you to the beach episode

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i was such a weird lonely little girl and maybe i grew to be a weird lonely woman but idc i built this life for myself and maybe it doesn’t always make sense to others and maybe isn’t always easy or beautiful but it is mine and i cherish it

please don’t spend your life convincing yourself that love or joy is reserved for the idealized version of you that only exists in the future

picture yourself happy and then keep picturing it