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CON-GRAT-UL-LAT-IONS! ALL OF MY FRIENDS! PUBLIC REL-A-TIONS ARE GETTING A CLEANSE... PUT ON YOUR SUNDAY BEST BECAUSE I'M NO WHERE CLOSE TO QUITTING! SO PLAY THE GAMES AND JUST IGNORE THE PAINS.

CAUSE ALL THAT REMAINS IS HOW YOU PRIME YOUR BRAINS! YOU WHINE TO ME BUT YOU'RE TOO BLIND TO SEE THAT I'M THE ONE WHO'S RUNNING THE SHOW!...

𖧧 sprout - he/they , transmale , gay 𔓐𑇓

𓏵 my crimpuppy <3. ୨ৎ qpp; garrett !! Ი𐑼

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blog tags

𔓐𑇓 main posts — #diary entry ୨ৎ

𖧧 vents — #hidden entry 𓏵

𔓐𑇓 nsft — #crossed out entry 𓏵

𖧧 posts about / for crimson (🫀) — #for my puppys eyes only 𓏵

𔓐𑇓 asks - #writings from another ୨ৎ

subsystem members

🍓 — sprout - he/they - host / caretaker .ᐟ.ᐟ

💌 — S - he/him - obsession / bpd holder .ᐟ.ᐟ

📼 — berry - they/he - protector/traumaholder .ᐟ.ᐟ

🍰 - june - any pronouns - gatekeeper / caregiver

☕️ - beri - it/its - confuser

🌱 — juniper - they/them - little .ᐟ.ᐟ

dear diary..

dear diary.

dear diary...

you and me, we were meant to be

we live happily in my fantasy

we go walking down the aisle,, yeah, you look at me and smile

my alarm clock rings, I wake up in denial

but i want to get next to you

yeah, i love all the things you do

i want to get close to you

you are my dream come true

i want to have sex with you

your sweet caress won't do

cause I'm obsessed with you

dear diary.

dear diary.

the voices are getting louder.

i don't feel like myself.

what's wrong with me.

something is wrong?

what do i do.

people say i was there when we were hanging out today but was i? i don't remember .

what

Is

Wrong

With

dear diary..

dear diary...

i don't know why i threw up, was it the paranoia? was it the food i ate? i never throw up when i eat from the place i ordered from... maybe it's the paranoia, the slight stress eating... i'm not sure...

i hate being alone, i hate the quiet, i know every door and window is locked, the blinds are closed, i know it's okay but my body thinks i'm unsafe.

-🫀(💖)

13 / 05 　　9:08

dear crimson...

dear diary...

it's pissing it down out here

speak english.

it's raining fucking hard

then say so.

dear diary.

i don't really want to be awake for the next almost 24 hours, i want to be synced with THEM. i have alarms set, but i need to find ways to entertain myself especially for later on. i know i'm going to get bored doing the same thing i normally do when i'm alone...

i don't understand how people do this shit. i've never been good with being alone, i know i'll be fine though, just do what i always do. it's fine. it's going to be okay. it's fine. it's fine. it's fine.