this stupid show is like the nexus of everything that drives me insane because the metatext is like it's a psychosexual sandbox for the leads to exercise and exorcise the wildest impulses and their characters, who bear their full names, are like their ids. and they've been friends since highschool and creative collaborators for like twenty years. and again and again matt will talk about all his characters having 'a kind of longing they can't quite admit' and embodying a permanent adolescence with its private embarassing discoveries and desires
and then the text is like soo there's an episode where matt nearly kills jay and jay immediately forgives him, followed by an episode where matt goes to great lengths to follow jay around without his knowledge or consent and the experience just deepens jay's appreciation for matt, followed by an episode where they quite literally inhabit each others bodies. and they share a house and bunk beds and a life. and they sleep with bert and ernie plushes.
and this insane codependency and affection and the complete blurring of their individual selves are all just the negative space that facilitates the shenanigans that form the plot of the show. like it would be ludicrous if they tried to actually verbalise the enormity of this feeling they share cos it's like this massive black hole at the centre of their galaxy that they constructed together. so matt will push jay as far as he can and he will kick jay out of the band on impulse and then he will die for him because outside of their world there's nowhere for them to go.
and, again, it's all rpf fic they're writing about themselves!!
