i'm just, fucking, tossing bikes in the river, bruh

'you and me' by Diana Boier

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and then the text is like soo there's an episode where matt nearly kills jay and jay immediately forgives him, followed by an episode where matt goes to great lengths to follow jay around without his knowledge or consent and the experience just deepens jay's appreciation for matt, followed by an episode where they quite literally inhabit each others bodies. and they share a house and bunk beds and a life. and they sleep with bert and ernie plushes.

and this insane codependency and affection and the complete blurring of their individual selves are all just the negative space that facilitates the shenanigans that form the plot of the show. like it would be ludicrous if they tried to actually verbalise the enormity of this feeling they share cos it's like this massive black hole at the centre of their galaxy that they constructed together. so matt will push jay as far as he can and he will kick jay out of the band on impulse and then he will die for him because outside of their world there's nowhere for them to go.

and, again, it's all rpf fic they're writing about themselves!!

Matt: Well, my answer will not match that description at all because I've been going to film festivals for so long and I haven't been able to see movies in the festivals. But—

Do you miss that, being able to watch movies?

Matt: [in an affirmative tone] Oh, my God. Oh, my God. But you know what, I have Toronto, the Toronto Film Festival is just like, a repository of everything.

So you just go and check everything out?

Matt: I just watch everything. I just watch everything. They just play it all at the Scotiabank Theatre and I just watch every single movie. And what's so great is you can just walk out whenever you want, so it's like, if something doesn't catch me I just leave and go to another screening because there's so many thing screening at the same time. I cried watching Dungeons & Dragons.

Really? Tell me about it. I liked it too.

Matt: Oh, yeah?

Yeah.

Matt: Oh, I cried. Like, that movie is a great example of me going in with a huge chip on my shoulder being like, "Yeah, right, this sucks." I didn't like the other films from that group of filmmakers, I found them to be mawkish in a way, and I was expecting the exact same thing here and I was completely captured. I swear it must've been the puppetry.

[laughs]

Matt: Because the film was so tactile and goofy and sweet and it kind of had this PG "Aw, shucks" innocence that—it was—I couldn't judge it. For me to be like, "Oh, this movie is bad" would be like, almost making fun of a really happy kid who's just doing his own thing, and what does that make me look like? I'm gonna watch some kid running around playing a game with his friend and be like, "What an idiot"?

What led you to go see a Dungeons & Dragons film in theatres?

Matt: My good friend, Jay McCarrol, is part of a Dungeons & Dragons group and he was going with his friends and I was like, "I'll come with you." And so we saw a sneak preview, and I'm telling you, at that act three moment, I just cried. I was standing next to my brother, Erik, and just cried. Maybe it's because I played Baldur's Gate, I don't know.

[laughs]