ARM CHOPPING IS NOT A LOVE LANGUAGE

who up transing they gender

"Stories can be retold. They can be changed... That's what I believe."

chairiel is the world's comfiest la z boy to me

fascinated by how Battat simultaneously resents and covets Tenna

bonus because I couldn't resist

deltarune tomorrow (in two weeks)

this monologue from susie interests me not in that it's an indiciation of susie "liking darkness too much," but in that it's very indicative of just how much she's been shaken up by what she's just seen in at the end of the prophecy.

susie stakes her entire worth on fate – the idea that she has a purpose written somewhere no one can erase. and it makes sense with who she is – she wants best for tenna, but treats "being a useful object" as what gives him his worth. she fears that like tenna, not having something to make her "useful" – not having a special purpose written in fate itself – means she'll never be chosen at all. she fears that being "a hero" is the only way for someone like her to have friends – that now, she's "still bad", but she has "hope crossed on her heart," because it was foretold. and i don't think that fear has gone away just because she's seen that her fate might require her to do something terrifying – perhaps even to her friends – later on.

it's only after she says this – after she puts on a brave face for ralsei – that she confides in kris her "stupid dream". and i think it makes sense – she wants best for ralsei. she doesn't want him to cry. but that "stupid dream" makes sense, too. her very first adventure – the way things were before – is very symbolic of her fear. in that adventure, she learned how to be a hero. she came to accept her fate. she made friends – she had friends, and for the very first time, those friends were seemingly fated to be hers.

of course, things weren't as clear-cut as she seems to cast them. her gradual deference to the prophecy wasn't and isn't some neat-and-tidy package wrapped in a bow – and that inner conflict over if she should go in on defying it wholesale is rising in her even now. but i do think said conflict is going to come to a head very soon – i think soon, susie'll find herself coming to grips with her past, her present, her fear, and her fate.