Swishes my big fluffy $$$$-ing tail

how is the mannequin meta 😭

get this golden mf off the screen im sick n tired of this guy

i also finally recorded a timelapse thang yaya i may record more for future pieces

close up also

And if we REALLY wanted to, we could kill anyone, we could mod a random weapon that triggers the enemy death flags and go ham, just like ralsei can just burn people if he wanted. but we dont, for the reasons flowery says, we want to see if he CAN beat us, and if we can him, if either of us can break the prophecy.

her “defense” is putting her arms up in front of her face like shes blocking a punch, as opposed to something more fantastical, like Kris’s shield or ralsei’s cape

seemed genuinely surprised over getting her own bedroom

frequently seen eating whatever she can get her hands on (the alley milk, chalk, Kris’s shampoo??, etc) ((yes this could just be a bit but it feels more important than that)) + constantly seems to be hungry

^ adding onto that, one of the main ways she shows care for people is by getting them to eat (letting Lancer have the darkcandy, making sure ralsei has a slice of cake, baking the pie with toriel)

^^ adding onto that AGAIN, Ralsei is very careful to make sure Susie always has enough to eat in the dark world (offering to bake for her, filling her fridge)

the other way she shows care for people is by putting herself between them and whatever the threat is

doesn’t claim any of the houses/apartments in town to be hers, and anxiously asks Kris “we’re going to your house, right?” in ch.4

becomes super protective/attached the moment any adult shows her the slightest bit of care and doesn’t treat her like shes “bad” (toriel, old man, etc)

lightworld outfit appears to be pretty tattered, jeans have holes in them

always wanting to go back to the dark world

doesn’t seem like she’s gotten a lot of positive feedback before from teachers/adults (mentions that the old man is the only one whose taught her in a way that didn’t make her feel stupid)

acts violent/mean as a defense mechanism when shes upset (Lancer fight, Ralsei confrontation)

tells Kris that they “have a good mother”, + Toriel was the one who ended up comforting Susie when she was anxious about moving to a new town again, as opposed to her own goddamn parents???

mentions “one of the places I used to live”, implying shes been moved around a lot

doesn’t go to church, like we see many of the other kids doing with their parents/families

everything surrounding the piano incident— nobody stood up for her when she was told she wasn’t allowed to play (like you’d think a parent would), nobody was watching her/stopped her from coming back and smashing it, and nobody ever tried to teach her to play

CONFIRMATION THAT SHE SLEPT IN THE DARK WORLD OVERNIGHT??? bro she hasnt been home in like three days WHY is nobody looking for her

mentions to Noelle that she's used to eating thrown-out leftovers

she's getting advice on dating/relationships from literally everyone BUT her parents. like why is Queen helping her pick a date outfit and not her own real-life mother

tells Kris that she "didnt know their family had problems too"

seeing Toriel drunk scares her out so badly that she spends the entire chapter REFUSING to go back to Kris's house or interact with her at all

WE STILL???? DONT EVEN KNOW HER LAST NAME ????? OR WHAT HER PARENTS LOOK LIKE OR IF SHE HAS A HOUSE LIKE WTF THIS IS CHAPTER FIVE SUSIE WHAT IS YOUR BACKSTORY

straight up tells Blue that she "doesn't know what love means" jesus christ my poor baby oh susie you deserve everything good in the world

this doesnt rly count but oh my god shes so willing to overlook how INCREDIBLY sus Kris is being and it just reads to me as willful ignorance bc shes desperate to not lose one of the only people she has

SHE LITERALLY REFERS TO THE DARKWORLD AS HER HOME. PRIOR TO THAT SHE CALLED KRIS'S HOUSE HER HOME. SHES SO DESPERATE TO BE AWAY FROM WHEREEVER SHE ACTUALLY LIVES. LIKE SHES BEEN TO THESE PLACES MAYBE THREE-FOUR TIMES APIECE??? and theyre still more of a home to her than her own living space susie my baby how bad is your family

There's times where it feels like your hopes and dreams are simply slipping away from you. That the things you wanted to achieve are floating away from you in the sky while you lie there, fallen in a crater, your wing torn off, never to grow back. Bitterness grows, and you feel like you may never leave the ground again.

But.

That's not true.

just thinking about kris, i think there's a lot of ways their struggles can be interpreted as relating to disability. one example that seems particularly intentional is kris not being able to play the piano while under the soul's control and toby commenting about not being able to play the piano (among other things) due to pain.

In 2024, I actually developed wrist issues, and chapter 4 hit me like a truck with this theme. Especially since two months later, I got a bad flare up

It's mostly stable now, but I'm never really going to be free from it, probably. And as someone that loves making stuff, it's crushing to be limited in what you can do. The first four months of the injury were extremely soul crushing, I couldn't do much without pain. The pain itself was maddening too, but not being able to do things affected me way worse. It's probably not the same thing that Toby has, but it's close enough that it resonates a lot with me.

So seeing that scene in chapter 4, where one of the first things they do without the soul is playing piano, and then later with piano that may not be played that well, it hits very close. Those little moments without the pain, without what is limiting you, they're really precious, even if you can very easily over exert yourself and cause the pain to come back worse. I mean, Rudy himself shows that too. He's trying to make the most out of the moments where he feels ok enough to help Noelle, but it probably is what caused him to fall down at the festival.