SJM

I’m feeling heartbroken all over again and don’t entirely understand why. I lost you months ago. I feel like deep down my heart still yearns for you eve knowing that I’ll never have u back in my life again. Doubt she’ll ever read this but just in case. I still love you and wish u the best.

While at walmart the other day i noticed this very old man walk out of the mcdonalds. He’s very old,short and he looks frail. I notice that he glances at the couple near the entrance as they tend to their 2 children. My eyes follow him across the front of the store to the deli. after it was like a wave of sadness and confusion came over me. I wondered about the life he’s lived the love hes had and lost. It also made me realize how far i’ve got till im that age looking back on all the young people and reminiscing about the old days with other people at mcdonald’s. i have no idea what i was trying to get across it just felt really nice to write out.

I just realized that being the oldest child I got all the shit from my parents. In the sense of their parenting skills.They may not have been the best but they tried their best. As i sat there today looking over all of my siblings i realized that despite our different fathers and living situations(as corny as it may sound) but we’re all connected. Not solely by our mother but the way we were raised. All different but very similar.