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"I hope you won't mind if I think of you as a friend."

From many I see the attitude of "Trans men/mascs are hyper-invisible which means nobody knows you exist which means they don't do anything or very little to you".

Which creates the false idea that trans men/mascs are intentionally putting themselves into harms way by being vocal.

But vitally it creates the idea that, as stated, we're being basically ignored by transphobia and oppressive systems in general.

That's far from the truth. Anyone born or assigned female in a patriarchal society is going to be subjected to misogyny regardless of gender identity (just like how all women are subjected to misogyny regardless of birth/assigned sex).

Those born/assigned female who seek to deviate, even if they're not trans men/masc, are thoroughly punished.

When that transgression against how 'women' should be is the fact that you're not a woman and intend to live your own truth then society will do anything it can to force you to conform again. Harassment, stigmatisation, physical abuse, sexual abuse, forced pregnancy, conversion therapy are just a few things they do and if none of that gets you to be a woman again? Murder. In fact, many jump straight to the murder. Some even go to torture first then murder us.

Trans women/femmes go through most of that too of course, and a fair number will never be known to have gone through it specifically for being trans.

But the level in which a trans man/mascs true gender will be erased is the result of being hyperinvisible.

You don't know we're here, so you don't notice when we're gone.

You don't know we're here, so you don't notice us in pain and need.

We're swept away, either to complete secrecy or down in the statistics as women.

Then people ask us where all the older trans men/mascs are, where are their contributions? Dead. They're dead.

I loved the fic disjunction so much i drew my favorite scene pls read it if you haven’t !

gotta say, it feels just a little surreal and silly to make a billford fic rec list in the year of our lord 2024, but hell yeah sure

There's an Endless Road by @agentquinn is one of those fics I reread like. at least once a year at this point. Post-canon, human!bill (absolute trash gremlin, as he should be), roadtrip with Bill, Stan and Ford. Cannot understate how much of a comfort fic this is to me. Do yourself a favor and read it

Also by Quinn, State of Dreaming is very much as the description of "One of Us AU, sort of". I remember for real gasping when figuring out what was going on. It's dark, it's just the right flavor of a bit surreal, it's fantastic

In All My Dreams I Drown (also by Quinn, I swear I've read fics from different authors) is a Pirates of the Caribbean AU with Bill as Calypso, Ford as Davy Jones that kickstarted me and @swiftboone talking non stop about this AU for months on end back in the day. Here's a masterpost of the AU of all of the wonderful peeps contributing to it!

While not really a billford fic, if you're on the Bill canon backstory high rn, please please PLEASE read Flat Dreams by @pengychan. It's an absolute masterpiece that very much made me weep reading back in the day. 100% one of those fics I want everyone who's into GF to have read at least once.

If you're not intimidated by long (LONG) fics, I slavishly followed Knowing Me, Knowing You by @f-imaginings back when. On surface, a typical 'bill gets trapped in a human body pre-betrayal' fic, but holy damn does it go places. equal parts rom com with an ABBA theme, equally character study/exploration with some great sci fi stuff

for something shorter, this fic by @marypsue is 100% one of my fave AU concepts of 'bill losing his own powers to make Ford a demon instead, making himself human in the process'. It's so good, bill being his usual trash baby self while coming to terms with the whole "being powerless" thing.

Anyway, these are the one's I can come up with from the top of my head! I've still got a whole heap of GF/billford fic recs under my fic rec tag, so that's another place to go searching! (and what the hell, shameless self promo of my own old fics lmao)

(may 27th)

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I accidentally set them on their worst possible outcomes together.

Gale became the God who ignores the prayers of mortals so they can pull themselves up by their bootstraps with their own ambitions.

Astarion Ascended and found that every sacrifice he made to get there was worth it. No remorse. And certainly no joy.

And they chose a life of seclusion where they can spend eternity in each other's presence rather than experiencing life in its entirety. Two mortals who know the silence of the Gods passing that same silence forward once they achieve Godhood. It's a life marked by isolation and silence.

When they hear fraught prayers like those Astarion once echoed in the dark of his tomb, those prayers will be met with the same deafening silence. but they'll be together chasing ambition for eternity.

I was actually just up in Ohio for the solar eclipse, and did you know, I'd never seen Spring before?

I thought I had, because down here in Florida we do get some flowers and nice green leaves as the weather shifts from cool to hot, but the trees are never bare and the flowers just blend in with the rest of the trees and in comparison this Actual Spring was some sort of magical wonderland, I swear to god, I've never seen anything like it

Apple blossoms???? are so pretty???????? the subtle changes of the colors, and they take up the whole tree and they're so damn beautiful????????????????? I had never seen them before, we don't have any apple trees down here at all, but now they might be my favorite flower

I'm familiar with cherry blossoms- we do have some cherry trees- but not like this. This tree was entirely pink and stood out so much! No leaves or anything on the trees, just flowers everywhere!!! I see why people like spring and cherry blossoms so much, I think.

And idek what these are but LOOK at that!!!!!!! Life and color!!!! Spring!!!!

So yeah. I went to Ohio and I thought it was beautiful and i wanted to share that with you. Your state is wonderful!!!