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“Do it scared” “do it alone” are all great tips, but my biggest takeaway from therapy is do it messy. This is especially true if you’re getting out of a burnout, which I experience often. Literally just do it messy. You don’t need to pick the perfect trail to walk, the perfect playlist to listen to, whatever the fuck it is. You don’t need to have a meticulous to do list and wake up at the exact time you planned and drink the exact amount of water you planned to drink. Like the biggest thing for people like me to remember is sometimes it’s okay to do it messy. Put on a random yt workout and just get it done in sweats. Do 5 minutes of a daunting task and go from there. Sometimes just getting up is a win during intense burnouts or depressive funks. Literally just do it messy.

"it's just stress" oh thank god, it's just the silent killer that slowly kills you, perfectly harmless, no need to worry

the future looks so bleak. i dont blame anyone for being mental

imagine being well-adjusted to any of this

Really fucked up that you can just inherit complexes from your mother and be fully aware that they're complexes from your mother but still do all that shit

having someone you can just be silly with is so so important

thanks for being nice to me. in return i will die for you and never leave your side and go grocery shopping with you.

i hope that in 2025 u get to take more walks, read more books, connect with more people whom u love and who love u, achieve ur goals (even if ur goals are having no goals and just living in the moment), exercise fun hobbies, move from a place of self-direction, and weave together a beguiling assortment of beautiful little moments. remember that no feeling lasts forever. love u

and i actually hope u learn to forgive urself a little more and operate from self compassion rather than self flagellation. this is ur first time living - there is no rehearsal to any of this. u will live and u will learn. drink lots of water in the morning and dance to ur favorite music first thing. u are not uniquely horrible, but just learning how to live. u got this <3

i was born to be a monk because my favorite activities are sitting at a desk, rearranging bookshelves and having existential crises

"am I being annoying" are you aware that my heart is trying to crawl out of my chest to get to you

i cannot hate myself into a version of me i will love.

i cannot punish myself in any way that will unmake the past.

I learn everything the hard way btw

worrying is like worshipping the problem

and brother i’m on my knees