Some Cool Girl

riita ikonen

I’m busy

With Light & Love

— Anthony Marra (via quotemadness)

Markus Matthias Krüger - Solitär, 2014

Tracee Ellis Ross at Clive Davis’ Pre-Grammy Party (2004).

full shoot on patreon link in bio

Queen of the Damned (2002)

I don’t really know what my problem is or if I even have a problem. All I know is that I know nothing, and I’m afraid. I don’t want to get hurt. I don’t want the doubtful part to be right. Maybe I just need to stop daydreaming. Stop with the happily ever afters. Why does that “favor” to myself, crush me? Can you believe I still sometimes think about going back? To dynamics and relationships that didn’t serve me. At least then, there wasn’t much to figure out. There was no change, no growth, no chance. I could count on everything staying the same. Maybe this new lease on life is more than I bargained for. If I could somehow afford this love, I may as well adorn myself in joy and possibility. Drown myself in freedom and opportunity. Suffocate in the endless space I create for myself, to roam aimlessly, to frolic, to leave behind my trail of colorful mess. My existence is an art gallery. One day I will be able to share my story. One day I will not be afraid to be seen for who I am. It will be that day I cry tears of joy, for the unconditional love I have for myself.