awww crap

I grew up in a somewhat conservative family, so I used to be kind of sex-negative because all the relationships I ever saw looked so unappealing. The girl was always "innocent" and "sweet" while the guy was "strong" and "brooding". No matter what the girl said she was always playing hard to get, "no" always secretly meant "yes", and after marriage: nuclear family structure feat. housewife and working husband.

eughhhh.....

so yeah here's some nicknames that i dislike.

"babygirl", "little girl"

would be a cute thing to call an infant. too bad i'm not an actual human baby and i don't want to be treated like one. if i wanted to be infantilized i would go talk to my parents.

any version of "my prey" or "pet", signifying ownership

no thank you? i'm my own person.

any profanity

oh no, sorry that i want respect from my partner. like come on misogyny is already everywhere, i don't need to feel catcalled even when i'm with someone i'm supposed to trust.

any concept

i'm aware this doesn't really happen in real life, but in books it is rather jarring. i've seen weird books where the ml calls the fl "my violence" or some shit like that. it is so unbearably corny.

and i didn't like it all that much.

no it's not because i'm some purist that can't stand visual novels with raunchy content okay i downloaded stuff off itchio by the batch, i know my damn stuff

the point is it feels like the stuff the characters say is super generic for a game that's supposed to be all dark and stuff. like i feel like stuff about "being whatever you want (suggestive emoji)" and "wanting to make you scream" or whatever is really damn lackluster. like. i think i could get that from pulp fiction featuring alpha daddy ceo wolf and his little submissive kitten. or i could get that from a random tinder openings reddit post.

like omg the "wow i love you so much i'm going to kidnap you" trope is so overdone. "i'm overrun with lust/jealousy so now i must sexually assault you" is also pretty overused. i also cannot exactly get over when a character is immediately like "oh- um- i love you! wait actually pretend i didn't say that" and the mc has no reaction.

usually this is the part of the essay where you're supposed to suggest a change. and uh. here's my suggestions. now i'm not saying the freak circus should implement all these changes. i'm just saying if i wrote the freak circus these changes would be in place.

1. a different voice actor cus god damn. the "deep husky daddy voice" that visual novel companies use for every marketable male love interest is getting really really damn boring (i'm looking at the voice they cast for casper in adwd) when can we get cute, lighter voice in a male love interest. like okay dude "growl in my ear" or whatever. pmo.

2. show more actually interesting emotions from the yandere. not just "jealous anger" and "lovesick rambling" and the occasional "cute" for those screenshots on tiktok. can we get actual despair and self doubt and begging and crazy mood swings? why is every male yandere so confident. where are the boyfailure yanderes that beg and look pathetic and not fixate on sex?

3. idk man i just don't like Harlequin's design. he's not appealing to me. might be the art style. oh i guess i'm actually beefing with the art style then. i just don't like black line art with no difference in line width i guess.

i did my best to not shame anyone who enjoys these things so if you feel personally offended come argue with me some more i don't mind. i'm not calling the game cringe because cmon we've all been there and we've all played YB, alright. i still enjoy tfc fanart from time to time. i think pierrot's design is cool (looks great in different art styles). i'm also not expecting the game to suddenly cater to my tastes or whatever. i like submissive guys and this game just happens to not feature that. why am i explaining myself? screenshots of old tumblr where people get mad angry over any personal opinion expressed. do i think i could do better? no because i love procrastinating and would likely never finish a long project.

any pronouns work

femme bigender