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he did treat me well often but, most of the times, he would ignore anything i told that bothered me, make me feel crazy whenever i opened up, every now and then share something anti-lgbtq, racist, xenophobic or any stupid shit that people would be ashamed to post on the net 10 years ago. not only that, but we also never had any fun. we'd barely go out and, whenever we did, he'd be bothered by anything i did (even though i never had any bad intention), and when we stayed in, he'd just put on an anime or a random video or scroll through his fb homepage. that's it.

it had gotten to a point that both of us were tired, but i think i was more. definitely way more. but i realized i HAD to break up when i finally found out i was liking another guy since some time.

and so i did! the next week after breaking up, i started going out with this new guy. we had our first anniversary (officially) together this 27th and i've never been any happier and satisfied with my life, even knowing im not perfect and still have a lot of bad habits to fix. i have a nice job, we've just started saving money for our house and we always motivate and help each other even when we don't have to. i've never had a friend like this and i hope this never ends.

and im not saying this to brag, at all. just... if anyone ever reads this, i hope you know your place. and by that, i not only mean "treat people nicely" but, mostly, "treat yourself the best way possible". you can count on your hands the amount of people who are going to be there for you when you need, and sometimes, not even the one supposed to support you the most is actually willing to do that. so do it for yourself. if you ever get the chance to choose happiness, don't think twice, just do it.

Also drinked this post

My last post lost traction, so here we go again

If you wanna support a queer, ill, and incredibly grateful binch, maybe consider donating to my p a y p a l here. I've been searching for a job but it's really hard to find something that's accommodating of my limitations and my schedule (I already have 40 hours of school a week, not counting homework & transport, and it's not a regular schedule either). I've been putting everything on my credit card for months and I've emptied every single account I had. I have rent, phone, transportation, electricity, heating, meds, school supplies, food etc to pay. You know, the usual. If even 4% of my followers gave 1$ each, I'd have enough to pay for everything! And I could also pay everything if every one of my followers gave 5 cents lol. (I'm absolutely not saying you have to donate, I just wanna illustrate how any amount is helpful!)