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You feel his big fingers go back and forth over one spot before his hand stills over your breast and his body goes rigid behind you. Before you can even turn around to him he gets up. He doesn’t even say a word as he shucks your top up to expose your breasts. You look up at him, your back now flat on the couch laughing thinking he’s just needy for you

“fra-aaaank, stop distracting me it’s getting to the good part” you roll your eyes affectionately, pressing pause on the remote.

When you look back up at him the look on his face is more worry than need - the line between his brows as he stares down at your chest. Suddenly you feel a little awkward and tense and acutely aware of having your breasts out and exposed.

“Frank? What is it?” You ask curious

He seems to break out of some sort of thought train at your words and looks up to you before he sits back up on the couch and pulls you on top of him, straddling his lap.

“arms up baby” he asks soft but serious

You give him a suspicious look but you comply, hesitantly lifting your arms up as he pulls your top off.

He brings his palm up to the side of your right breast and pushes and prods around with a look of concentration on his face. His nose twitches when you feel his hand stop.

“Frank what are you doing?” You laugh nervously

“Baby this is new, haven’t felt this before” he picks up your hand with his free one and places it in the same spot as his. He now looks up at you, his sweet brown eyes staring into yours.

Your eyebrows furrow together slightly as you feel around, and sure enough you feel it. A lump rolling around, about 3 fingers wide. You feel a little pit start to form in your stomach. “huh.. yeah it is” you mumble looking down at your chest.

You try not to spiral, it could be so many other things before it’s... that right? As if he senses your impending fall into your panic you feel his hands between your shoulder blades as he gently pushes you toward him

“Hey, we’ll get it checked yeah?” He says before a soft kiss in your lips. “Mhm” you hum as he grabs your top and pulls it back over you.

You climb off him and turn to head to the bedroom, Franks eyes fixed on your every movement as you turn the corner and disappear. He grabs his phone and sighs before swiping up and making a call.

“Red, need a favour.. you still got Claire’s number?” you hear Frank’s low voice faintly down the hall. Usually you’d be curious, but your mind is a little preoccupied right now as you stare in the mirror - top thrown off on the bed as you inspect your right breast.

You look up at Frank through the mirror as he walks in a few minutes later. “Baby get dressed, we’re going to the doctors” he says as he comes behind you wrapping his arms around your nude torso.

“I haven’t made an appointment Frankie” you reply, voice soft and distracted.

“Just did, cmon sweetheart” he says simply

“What? How” You quirk up confused

“Baby-please cmon let’s go” he says, pleading a little now.

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In under 5 minutes youre changed and out the door.

“How did you get an appointment so quickly?” You ask as Frank holds your leg firm, with the other death gripping the steering wheel

“Friend of a friend” he hums he pulls up into the car park.

He steps out of the truck and makes his way to your side. You don’t move when he opens your door, you’re sitting there staring at your palms in your lap.

Logically you knew there was no use sitting there and spiralling but try telling your brain that. All you could think about was the what ifs.

What if it was that, what if they had to remove it, what if it changed the way you looked, what if he wasn’t attracted to you after… what if it was worse, what if your time with the love of your life was cut short..

“baby.. cmon” Frank coos at you, pulling you out of your spiral as he pretty much picks you up and lifts you out of the truck.

As you sit in the waiting room for your appointment, your hand in Frank’s as his thumb runs soothing circles on top of your hand. You look down and see his knee nervously bobbing up at down. You bump your shoulder into the boulder sitting on his.

“You okay Frankie?” You say softly

“Me? What are you checkin on me for?” He laughs lightly - unconvincingly.

Before you’re able to answer a tired looking woman dressed in scrubs walks out of double doors, hair messily framing her face, as if she’d been there for way too long.

She calls your name warmly and you look up then back at Frank. You both stand up.

“Hey Frank, long time” she says casually giving Frank a smile

“Thanks for this” he says sincerely, lifting one arm and giving her a side hug.

“Yeah no problem” she says before turning back to you “just back here, follow me” as she turns to walk.

You both follow her before she turns back “sorry Frank, patients only behind the doors - y'know the go” she looks at him sympathetically.

“Nah-I gotta come- she can’t go alo-” he says voice tense his hand gripping yours tighter

You turn and place your hands on his chest looking up at him “it’s ok baby, I’ll be okay- I promise” you say softly

He looks down at you, the frustration in his eues melting away a little when he looks into yours. He sighs and concedes.

“I’ll be right here when you're done baby” he says giving you a kiss on your forehead as he watches you disappear behind the doors with Claire.

He stalks back to the chair, that he makes look comically small as he sits there, forearms on his twitching knee while he death stares the floor like it’s his mortal enemy.

Claire waits for you by the door as you walk in with her.

"so you're the one who tamed the beast huh?" she laughs gently

you look at her "he's not a beast" you say defensively before you continue "... but yeah guess so" you shrug

"I know I know, he's a good man" she says more sincere.

"so how do you know him?" you ask

"mutual friends" she says simply with a knowing smile, in a tone that you recognise as 'no further questions'

"ah, seems to be a lot of those" you say sarcastically and Claire laughs

"thank you though... I'm assuming this speedy appointment is you're doing?" you continue, voice a little more sincere and more vulnerable.

You feel her place a hand on your shoulder. "Hey, whatever it is, you're going to be okay.. you're young and you're acting quick" she says reassuringly before guiding you into the doctors room.

"she'll be right in.. it was nice meeting you, hopefully I see you again - maybe outside of here" she smiles

"yeah you too" you reply with a smile before she disappears.

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Almost 20 minutes pass when Franks brain starts concocting the worse case scenarios. What if it was that.. he wishes the damn mafia was after you instead - he could and would kill them all… but this, he can’t fight this, he can’t kill it.. no amount of fire power no amount of hits. He felt useless and he hates it.

He was supposed to protect you from everything… how was he supposed to protect you from this. Then he starts getting angry, angry at the universe - what a cruel joke he thought to himself. Giving him you, someone who made him believe again, be happy again, someone to love and who loved him back and then, what? Take you away.

The floor starts to look fuzzy as water fills his eyes, he roughly wipes it away as you walk back out. He stands up swiftly and walks over to you.

"what did they say?" he blurts out, his hands wrapping around your hips.

you smile a little, a smile that doesn't meet your eyes - the one that you sport when you're trying to stay calm - Frank notices straight away.

"can we get out of here please, we'll talk about it when we get home okay?" you voice small

He nods and guides you out, hand on the small of your back.

You're both relatively quiet on the ride home - just Franks hand on your thigh and your hand running up and down his forearms as you gaze out of the window with Frank stealing glances at you between staring at the road.

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Once you get back home you head straight for the bathroom, Frank follow you quietly. When he walks in you're staring in the mirror, one hand pulling your top up and the other one gently cupping your breast.

Frank looks down and see's the little square bandage on the side of you breast and he walks straight over.

"baby what happened? what did they say?" he pleads

you sigh and look up at him "they did a scan, I guess there was something there.. so they need to do a biopsy" you say gesturing at the bandage on the biopsy site.

"and then? do they know what it is?" he asks concerned

"don't know yet frankie, have to wait for the results, it'll take a few days" you reply tired, your hand coming up to cup his face "help me change? cant lift my arm up too much" you ask with a kiss on his nose

"ye-yeah honey" he sighs

He helps pull your top over your arm and completely off you. He holds you tight and bends down and places a gentle kiss right on the bandage before pulling one of his own bigger ones over you and scooping you into bed.

He wraps his arms around you tight, your head nestled under his chin.

"you're gonna be okay baby, I know you are" he whispers with a kiss on the crown of your head.

"as long as you're here I know I'll be... thank you for noticing it frankie" you reply with a kiss on his pec.

"always gonna be here honey, ain't going no where, i got you" he says with another kiss before you doze off in his arms.

He didn't get much sleep that night, he just watched you silently. Praying to whatever god was up there that you would be okay, and he wouldn't have you ripped away from him.

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