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A small collection of my Blue Night memories ✨

I remember setting a daily alarm every single morning to catch your Blue Night Radio. I didn't understand what you talked about but you were always such a source of comfort for me. Just hearing your voice was healing. It was a beautiful way to start my days. I miss it so much...

Afterwards, I would visit fan accounts like @cosmicsticks on twitter that would translate your words. Of course, because everything about you was poetry, I was always so impressed with you and the topics you discussed. Your point of view was always something that left me in awe of you. Always so kind, funny, passionate and loving. It was always the right thing I needed to hear.

I remember hearing Skeleton Flower be revealed for the first time on Blue Night and it taking me way too many seconds to realize it was YOU and not some other artist that sounded a lot like you lol. I didn't often hear you play your own songs so I wasn't expecting to hear one of them, especially one I didn't recognize. I found a soundcloud link that same day because I just had to listen to it again! (and again and again). To this day, Skeleton Flower is still one of my top 3 favorite songs from you 🌸

I remember on June 3rd, 2014, you played Jinki's OST "Moonlight" and at the time I thought "Aww cool! Random, but cool", only to find out 7 days later that on June 3rd, Jinki was having vocal cord surgery and you had played his song in solidarity. And of course tears ensued on my end lol

I remember when it was your last day as dj on Blue Night and it was a viewable radio. Those were always my favorite days. You were getting emotional like was to be expected since Blue Night meant a lot to you. As you were getting choked up, the one and only Choi Minho showed up, as he always did, to surprise you as a parting gift and surprise guest. Of course, your mood went from gloomy to super happy. Again, I cried (I'm good at that OTL).

I remember a lot of things and still not enough. I'm terrified of forgetting even one little detail. I guess I was probably half asleep most of the time though haha. I'm grateful to the shawol community who keeps "Jonghyun on this day" or "Jonghyun/SHINee archive" accounts going.

For shawols, you're our spring, our poet, our artist, our dj, our candle enthusiast, our vocal king, our musician, our Roo fan account, Taemin's fanclub president, our ACE plagarizer, our phone law expert, our internet troll fighter, our colorful Listerine suit guy, our shoe insole unfairness rep, our ambidextrous king, our inter-label collaborator, our tv show host roaster, our twitter guy, our equality activist, our author, our inspiration, our angel, our moon.

I want you to know that I think of you always. Your birth will always be celebrated.

Thank you for all the words you left behind.

"Because of you, my eternity is warm".

Happy birthday Kim Jonghyun 🤍