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'I'll just relapse through exams it'll be fine' I'm addicted again 🫩

It's too hot to sleep in a hoodie but that's all I have and I relapsedddd bro save me now

I need to stop relapsing cuz prom is in two weeks and my Shi takes about that to heal and while I plan on wearing a massive stack, I don't want it to be necessary

So used to cutting my right wrist that I go to hide that one when infact I can show that wrist and it's my left one that's the issue

And you're snapping at me for asking where something was in the fridge (when you asked me to get it out) but all I'm thinking of is yesterday when I had to reassure you that it was fine you forgot to sign me up for prom and that I have to put a jacket on to go downstairs

Maybe if I start becoming difficult and make stupid and unnecessary arguments they might listen to me for once

My name is a very general name and I tend to use some sort of variation on it with most of my socials, I keep the fact that I have Tumblr to myself because I think it'd be relatively easy to find me and that's not at all a good thing because the stuff I put here is not at all what I want others finding (might move me to change my header image tho because it's even less likely that I'd be found)

I think if I didn't cut myself I'd be an angry and violent person to others, so in a way by hiding this and keeping to myself I'm doing society a favour I just don't know how to explain that to my parents

Cooked cuz why am I looking for stationary sets on vinted that include sharpeners 🙏🫩 tryna justify it too like I'm not about to leave school

Has anyone else found that their inner wrist barely scars? Like I've hit styro and I have the faintest scarring there but I've gone the same and had bumpy and really visable scars higher up my arm, like they'd be so pretty down there and easy to hide w braclets but nooo

Oopsies I also relapsed

I lowkie want a gf and to be intimate with someone because then maybe I'll have someone I'm close to and that listens to me

I miss hating my body like fym I'm appreciating that I can move and be active and eat nice food, no let me be sad and lose weight, I js don't have the energy to care rn