constantly suffering™

the crushing guilt of being unproductive vs the exhaustion of being burned out. fight.

i feel like i’m just a mistake

anyone else feel a deep crushing sense of loneliness or what

like no one ever stays because you're a cursed freak and too much for anyone or what

But the truth is I just want people to like me. I am afraid all my friends don't actually like me. I always  feel like the “background friend” , never a true friend. I worry people will get tired of my constant changing. My mental instability. I'm always the afterthought. I'm the second choice.

maintaining friendships is so hard when your mind is constantly telling you that you’re annoying and unwanted

i can't believe i'm real i hate this

do I want to die or do I want attention? trick question the answer is both

relationships are so fucking scary to me man. no matter how good things are going or how in love you are, your significant other could always just lose feelings for you and be gone just like that.

i hate how sensitive i am, i literally break my own heart

"Lets talk about how hard it is to open up to someone about being sad for no reason. Lets talk about how hard it is to explain to your friends and family that you have this heavy feeling in your chest for no reason. Lets talk about how hard it is to understand why you're having a panic attack while just taking a walk back home. Lets talk about how hard it is to understand your own self and how scary it is to feel like the whole world is falling on your shoulders and you have no idea why."

don’t u hate it when u wake up and ur awake

I’m actually really insecure. I feel like I’m always gonna fuck things up or people will lose interest in me cause I’m too clingy or too passionate or too much of some other trait that bothers them