having a coke with you

how grateful i am to not be a teenager during the era of tiktok

nothing will ever compare to the relationship between a girl and her twin fantasy era

Anne Carson, from “The Truth About God,” in Glass, Irony, and God (New Directions, 1995)

new will to live just dropped (the trees are in bloom and days are starting to get long again)

sorry im busy today i have to go hang out with my friend who is a decaying log and my other friend who is a patch of milkweed and my other friend who is the sun

big fan of sinks in front of windows

i spend my days waiting. waiting for the water to boil and my tea to be ready. for spring to come back. for more daylight. the oil in the pan to heat up. a “hey i miss you” or “can you help me out for a second?” or “you want to hang out?” text. for my phone to finish charging. for good news. flowers on the table. the next hug. “hey, you got the job!”. waiting for the sun. to set. to rise. to see both. for summer to be around the corner. a good song. a falling star. a text back. i spend my time waiting to be remembered. i spend my time repeating that tomorrow will be better. tomorrow will be better. i spend my days waiting and waiting and waiting. i spend my days waiting unbearably.

getting my wisdom teeth out tomorrow ahhhhh don’t like the thought at all scared of surgery scared of the recovery…. not vibing today

Teeth are out it was a lil scary but no so bad… had to get poked 5!! Times for the IV which was awful. And I still can’t eat bc I’m still bleeding and my mouth is still a little numb and it’s just a real clusterfuck but I suppose it will get better

feels right n good that the new year starts on a sunday. this entire year will have a sunday kind of love perhaps.... :0

happy sunday kind of love 2023