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âŞđ the ability to remove sentience âŹ
âif i had killed myself back when i planned to, i would have never experienced some things that i just cannot let go of.â
-a book thatâll be too hard to write
lots of blue pages latelyÂ
I post my work on instagram: @mercurialmilkÂ

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how do you plan on losing weight?
Iâm going to rip out my soul and become a lifeless shell because apparently thats the only way I can cope
ED: you need to be underweight!
Me: why?
ED: because then you'll have accomplished...something,
Me: what?
ED: ...something
& grief was eating all that Iâd let it.
Yves Olade, from âLiturgies,â published in Bombus Press (via lifeinpoetry)

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its so weird going to counseling and shit and having to say you were âtriggeredâ unironically after the internet and popular culture has completely fucking dismantled and destroyed a legitimate term in psychologyÂ
I told my therapist about the whole âlol triggeredâ thing and she was so, so angry. Triggers are real things, people. The word âtriggerâ is an actual word used in psychology to describe certain phenomena brought upon by mental illnesses like anxiety, depression, PTSD, psychosis, schizophrenia, etc. It is NOT something to make fun of, it does NOT mean âannoyed or offendedâ, and it most certainly is NOT a joke. So STOP making triggered jokes. Stop it.
me: *literally says anything*
therapist: can youâŚ. give me an example?
me, someone who has memory problems:
The main difference between me and my cat is that when she sleeps all day and does nothing productive, she doesnât feel crushing guilt and overwhelming societal pressure.
the sun has no business tapping out at the tender hour of 5pm bitch i have depression
anyone else feel like their trauma isnât bad enough n theyâre probably just overreacting to normal childhood experiences? same

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person: how are you
me: waiting for death but not seeking it out so i could be worse
suicidal people deserve a space to talk about their suicidal feelings without risking hospitalization/institutionalization or being accused of being manipulative or attention seeking
Itâs a therapist. The word youâre looking for is a therapist.
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The second a therapist thinks youâre even slightly suicidal (ie. Whenever you even say the word suicide) they âpink slipâ you, which means you get sent to a mental hospital against your will.
I think about suicide almost every day, but it doesnât always mean Iâm gonna go kill myself.
I just want to say, as someone who has taken courses in ethics and regulations regarding psychology and therapy and has worked at a counseling center for more than five years, THIS SHOULD NOT BE THE CASE. The only time a therapist or other healthcare provider is required to report suicidal or homicidal ideation is if there is a specific plan. I am deeply sorry to anyone who has ever experienced a therapist who acted otherwise. To the person above, I am not sure what your experience has been, but I promise you it is not a typical one, at least not in the area where I live (California). I have never heard of a âpink slipâ, and Iâve worked with therapists for 5+ years. Â
Going to a therapist changed my life. I was able to open up and say âI think about suicide almost every dayâ, and for the first time in my life someone said âYou donât have to live like this.â She didnât have me hospitalized, she didnât raise any alarms. She gently asked me if I had a specific plan, and when I said no, she said âWe are going to help you get better.âÂ
YOUR THERAPIST ABSOLUTELY SHOULD NOT HAVE YOU HOSPITALIZED AT THE MERE MENTION OF SUICIDAL IDEATION.Â
If you say, âIâm going to kill myself tonight by overdose,â then yes, they are required by law to have you hospitalized. Otherwise it is THEIR JOB to help you process your feelings and find a way to help you function and feel better.Â
I cannot be more emphatic about this. Therapists, by and large, are here to help, not to hospitalize. If you have health insurance, contact them today to find out about your mental health coverage. Go to your general care doctor and tell them how youâre feeling so that they can refer you to the right person. If you donât have health insurance, find a resource for a free/reduced fee clinic near you. Marriage and Family Therapist Interns are a great option, as they often see clients on a sliding fee scale. PLEASE GET HELP.
LISTEN TO ME: YOU CANNOT LEGALLY BE HOSPITALIZED AGAINST YOUR WILL FOR SUICIDAL IDEATION. FEAR OF HOSPITALIZATION SHOULD NOT STOP YOU FROM SEEKING HELP.Â
I understand that many people have hospital related trauma, and I understand, and sympathize. Talk to me. Send me a message. I will be happy to find you further information on laws and regulations in your area, referrals to other counseling centers, or even just listen to what you have to say.Â
I couldnât in good conscience scroll past this without saying something. As someone who struggled with depression for much longer than I should have because of fear of seeking treatment, I want to encourage everyone, experiencing any degree of mental illness to get help. I will do anything I can to support those of you going through something like this. Iâm here for you.Â
I literally talk to my therapist about suicidal ideation all the time and all sheâs ever done is have me clarify that I wasnât planning on acting on it. Iâm tired of tumblr discouraging people from trusting mental health professionals.