25. Aquarius♒️

This is so true for me right now.

So much stress with trying to graduate from college, I’m going crazy with this quarantine bullshit, I’m so fat and can’t lose weight, I want to be skinny now.

The Scale: ʘ‿ʘ

Me: Aye aye why u lookin so shifty

The Scale: ʘ‿ʘ

Me:

The Scale: ʘ‿ʘ

Me:

The Scale: ಠ‿↼

👏🏻 CANT 👏🏻

👏🏻 WAIT 👏🏻

👏🏻 TO 👏🏻

👏🏻 BE 👏🏻

my ed: no

me: i 👏🏻 want 👏🏻 pop 👏🏻 tarts

my ed: i said no-

me: i’m having pop tarts

my ed: you’re finna regret this

*half an hour later*

me: *crying*

all my friends: worried

me:

to all the people that want to have an eating disorder

…do you really want to give up your own life?

…do you really want to lose all your friends because you can’t meet them since everything involves food?

…do you really want to miss out on all the social events just because they include food?

…do you really want to starve yourself day in day out?

…do you really want to have nightmares about eating a cookie?

…do you really want to disappoint every one that cooks for you just because you can’t eat it?

…do you really want to vomit in a restaurant toilet because you had 50 grams of pasta or 2 pieces of pizza?

…do you really want to shit your pants because you overdosed on chemical laxatives?

…do you really want to fuck up your own body because you want it to be like someone elses?

…do you really want to have your hands peel off because you keep getting vomit on them every time you throw up? 

…do you really want to look like absolute death because you lack so many nutrients?

…do you really want to lose your life?

Because thats what eating disorders do. They steal your life and kill it.