A Sissy in the Making

Cute panties.

Perfume.

Lotioned up.

Plug in.

I lasted 3 whole days into 2026 without jacking off. Then on the 4th I was teasing myself and went too far. I underestimated how fast I would cum and had a very intense, VERY guilty orgasm.

The last domme didn’t work out.

There were valid reasons and some misunderstandings. I hate that it didn’t go more smoothly. I take responsibility but it kills me that she won’t even talk to me anymore.

It’s been many months now and I’m not really over the whole situation. I have no closure. I still yearn.

In other news, it’s New Year’s Day 2026. I hate my life and I’m miserable.

I have been realizing recently that I think I’ve been addicted to jerking off. I certainly do it way more than I should and to the detriment of myself. So my New Year’s resolution currently is that I’m not going to allow myself to jerk off.

It’s been years since I went more than a few days in a row without jerking off. Realistically, it’s been a lot of years. I was probably a preteen the last time I went a whole week without. I remember about 12 years ago I had a domme who didn’t allow me to for a few days and that felt like eternity.

But I really feel like I need to see if I can do this.

I have decided that I can still masturbate but only anal play. I’ve fantasized for years about being locked in chastity and forced to turn anal-only. Maybe this will help start me down that path.

Beta x Sissy x Gooner x Loser

I don’t even know what my identity is now