the quiet between us

Jerry: You want me to come up?

Reed: No, I think I just need to sleep

Jerry: Okay

Reed: I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to freak out.

Jerry: It’s okay

Jerry: I know you probably don’t want to hear this, but I think you need to stop playing with Jen’s heart.

Jerry: She really is a good person, and she knows what she wants, but you don’t. You’re hurting yourself already, and if you don’t figure things out you’re gonna end up hurting Jen too…

Jerry: People like her… And me… We act like we don’t care. Like it’s all just for fun. But it’s not. It hurts when you care about someone and they… They don’t see it.

Reed: I do see it. 

Jerry: No you don’t. Not really. 

Reed: Jerry, I don’t… I don’t know what you want me to do.

Jerry: Do you really like Jen, or do you like the idea of her? 

Reed: I don’t… I…

Jerry: I think you need to be able to answer that

Reed: I know…

1:47 AM

Jerry: So… how was it?

Reed: Honestly they kind of skimped on the beans

Jerry: I meant the sex, dumbass

Reed: Oh… uh… Fine, I guess

Jerry: Just fine? It wasn’t the transcendental, life-altering experience you anticipated?

Reed: It was just sex

Jerry: Just sex? It was that bad?

Reed: It wasn’t bad, it was just fine. 

Jerry: Just fine. 

Reed: What do you want me to say?

Jerry: I just expected a little more enthusiasm is all. I mean, you just got laid for the first time ever and all you have to say about it is that it was fine?

Reed: Well unlike you maybe I don’t feel the need to share every gory detail of every hookup I have

Jerry: Don’t come at me, I just bought you Taco Bell

Reed: Then don’t pry

Jerry: I’m just trying to be a good friend, you’re acting like you didn’t even want it

Jerry: Oh fuck…

Jerry: Reed, did she-

Reed: I wanted it, okay? I wanted it and then… I don’t know

Jerry: And then you didn’t?

Reed: I don’t know. I just- Jesus, I don’t know why I’m like this

Jerry: Reed-

Reed: Maybe my dad’s right about me. Maybe there is something wrong with me

Jerry: There’s nothing wrong with youReed: I like Jen! I really like her! She’s funny and sure of herself and she knows exactly what she wants- and she’s gorgeous. Like, really gorgeous. She’s perfect.

Reed: I don’t know why it isn’t enough. I don’t know why I can’t be normal.

Reed: I’m sorry. I think I just… It’s been a long day. 

Jerry: It’s okay. 

Reed: I’m just tired. 

Jerry: Do you want me to take you home?

"Is he alright?"

"Him? He's right where he wants to be."

A/N: Let’s try this mess again. Wow, hi guys! Where has the time gone… Haha... Seriously, this time I thought I’d just skip the awkward ballpark of announcing my arrival… again. Consistently will just always be my weakness and that’s okay. Everyone bear witness :P.

I’ll say it again, though: Through hell and high water will Big Brother S1 be complete! Except this time nobody has to worry about me abandoning the project again before we’ve even taken a single bite off the bone. I’ve finished editing and shooting all of week one!

Episode two was definitely the largest to tackle, and so will be the longest, but I promise everything will pick up from there. With how lengthy EP 2-4 (50+ posts!) is, I’m not sure how we’ll get through the next 9 weeks this year (I’m hoping this schedule will transition into daily posts), but I guess if the game has to continue pass 2026 just to perfect my vision, then well…

Anyway, despite it’s length, this was a much needed hiatus, I haven’t touched sims at all in the last two of these three months, I’m honestly rejuvenated in my obsession with this game. However, I’m really sorry for neglecting you all 🤧. I missed you guys greatly and I’ve got much to catch up on, but in this moment I’m back once again 🧸🫶.