Helena tried to quiet her breathing, silence her hiccups. Dee turned into towards her room, seeing his little sister shaking, crying.
hi my lovelies, it’s been awhile :,)
I’ve been so busy with school and just getting my life back together (I say as I’m writing this at 4:43 am)
Trans Heavy au’s and my au has always been something I wanted to draw and expand on, so here we are! This is like, my starting point lol
I have a fic that’s been in the works for straight two years but never posted (self confidence is just like, 6 feet below) lol
I love this idea so much and I heavily, heavily relate to it.
[Context:3] in this drawing, Heavy is still not “transitioned” yet and is still having troubles being able to be himself. This particular day was rough especially.
He was outed and horrible shit happened to him at school, which he had told no one about. When he gets home, no one is there. Dee’s not home yet, Mama is gone to the bar for the evening, and Pa is at a clients house teaching a student music.
As soon as he gets inside the house he collapses, the days events weighing on him and just gutting him from the inside out. He throws his bag against the railing and drags his body up the stairs, seemingly now weighing 1,000 pounds.
When he gets to Dee’s and his’ conjoined rooms he throws open the door and doesn’t even bother to close the door, since no one’s home of course.
Heavy doesn’t even have the strength to turn on the light as he stands in front of his mirror, staring at someone who is not himself. All this staring into his own eyes makes him feel upset and go hysterical.
His crying starts slow but soon builds to full on sobs and hiccuping, unable to slow any soon.
Heavy’s so upset and angry he doesn’t even hear the sound of someone coming slowly up the stairs.
Apparently, Dee stayed home this afternoon. He never went back to school. Heavy didn’t know this information, or even see that the boy was lying on the couch in the living room when he came in.
Heavy wrapped his arms around his body, trying to make himself smaller, so maybe he wouldn’t be such a disgrace and take up so much space.
This makes him think more and he breaks down more into hysterics. He’s shaking at this point and just can’t seem to stop.
Dee’s able to hear all of this as he hovers outside of their bedroom doors frame.
He doesn’t know what to think, what could affect his untouchable little sister like this? She’s never cried like this before, even when she ate shit falling down those flights of stairs.
Or even when Chipmunk beat her into the ground.
Dee quickly turns into the room unable to bear listening to his little sister cry by herself any longer.
As soon as he does this, Helena’s head whips towards him.
She’s shaking and she can’t stop.
Dee has no idea what to do. What happened? Who did this? And what the fuck happened to Helena?
“..Helena?” It was almost like speaking to a fawn. If you spoke to loudly, she’d run away.
Okay that’s like, the context you get.
Heavy is in fact trans, ftm, but this scene takes place before his transition takes place AND before he tells his family. Hence why Dee is using his deadname and misgendering him :(
He’s not doing it on purpose! Dee would NEVERR
Heavy just, hasn’t come out yet!
Okay I hope you guys like this one <3
I love you all, Christmas is soon! Enjoy,
And as always art is by me ——> @sillyboycam
HEAVILYYY INSPIRED BY @/chimericalCarnival and their fics on Ao3 GO CHECK EM OUTTTTT!!!
love you guys talk to you soon!
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