Hart was on testosterone, legally changed his name, and had gotten a hysterectomy (that was described as "unfortunate" by the Right to Privacy gay and lesbian political action committee), making him the first documented trans man to transition in the USA, yet he was characterized as a lesbian woman because cis gays and lesbians had the nerve (when do they NOT have the nerve, dare I say) to think they had the right to "honor [his] life as a woman" by having fundraiser dinners with his deadname attached to them, having college lectures where they talked about him as a lesbian hero, and using she pronouns for him until 2000. The USAmerican trans community, including trans activist Lou Sullivan, had to fight to defend Hart's identity and to have his manhood recognized by the wider community by protesting these lectures and dinners and having a conversation with the Portland chapter of the Lesbian Avengers association, which ended up having a favorable response and joining the trans community in the battle.

I want to end this by reporting the words of Candice Hellen Brown, a trans woman from Portland who wrote a letter to Just Out magazine in 1994 defending Hart's transness:

The Right to Privacy Political Action Committee in Oregon has a big fundraiser every year that is called the [deadname] Hart Dinner. When asked if I am going, I indignantly answer, "Not until they stop using the wrong name and gender for one of our heroes!" His name is Alan [. . .] He never wavered from his identity as a man, and upon his death, his widow continued to insist that he was a man. Why would such a straight man be called a lesbian by the gay community when today we would certainly call him a female-to-male transsexual? [. . .] He was transsexual or, at least, a transgenderist - a true pioneer. One who is seen as a hero by today's transsexual community. Please don't let him be taken away from us by allowing his old name to be used as though it were a badge of honor.

whatever we do, we can't win. we can't be seen as actually nonbinary. people binarize us and often mock us or get aggressive or dismiss and ignore our nonbinaryhood or something else.

if we don't medically transition, we are "just cis trenders."

if we do medically transition, we are "just [binary trans] eggs."

we are "technically transmasc or transfem anyways" if we don't use these terms.

we are lumped together with binary trans men and trans women if we do use these terms. our nonbinaryhood is ignored or seen as some kind of "gender-lite."

we are aggressively pressured to disclose if we're AFAB or AMAB, TMA or TME, transmasc or transfem, "boy nonbinary" or "girl nonbinary." and if we refuse to answer, people get double mad at us and pick something for us anyways.

if we show the slightest hint of something that could be interpreted as binary gendered, we are immediately binarised.

if we put a lot of effort into looking the most ambiguous or androgynous or neutral, people still try to find something. and they become aggressive. people often EXPLODE [PT: explode] when they can't gender someone by glance.

our ways of expression are constantly mocked and ignored (like neopronouns, nonbinary-centering labels for gender and orientation, basically all things that are associated with nonbinary people).

but if we choose more typical ways of expression (for example, use "he/him" or "she/her" pronouns), people use it to ignore and dismiss our nonbinaryhood.

The irony of course is they're hearing about McCarthyist anti-communism, not the anti-communism 98% of the people of folks in anti-commie areas of the internet are about. They stick around the books on communism and the Manifesto only long enough to see stuff they're on board with and then they go 'YES! I'M A COMMUNIST! FUCK YOU, BOOMERS'.

Which means they didn't get to the part about the various regimes force-sterilizing trans people, shooting queer people in the street, packing them off to gulag for holding hands with someone of their same (perceived) gender.

But this also means that so many of these trans/queer commies (which is like an oxymoron) have this cognitive dissonance that they're the exception once faced with the fact that queer commies are dead commies. That the USSR would have just needed to realize queer people are just as much a comrade. That if they're a comrade strong enough they'll be bulletproof (in whatever literal fashion that would have to be). But of course, that's what happened to a LOT of commies. They thought their absolute loyalty to the cause would save them. But unfortunately this week they were in the wrong group of commies.

And I've seen some being all 'I would be the first to kill [such and such]'. For what crimes? For being an anti-communist. For being 'against the revolution'. But this is because in their very selfish fantasy, they have power now. Power to the people and they're people right? So now it's their turn to persecute other people, seemingly lesser people. To mow them down. Power corrupts. And they've been corrupted in their fantasies.

Westerners: BUT NOT ALL RUSSIANS

But have you checked? Have you checked none of their relatives were actively participating in killing Ukrainians? Be it serving in the army or building drones and missiles? Or even consuming the propaganda and calling Ukrainians nazis, when they are the nazis, like the literal definition of the word? Have you checked where they donate their money? Have you traced where their taxes go? Ukrainians did. Ukrainians, me in particular, check every post, every artist, in case they are russian or support them. We do the work for you, we tell you - stop paying ruzzians to kill our children - and you ignore it.

Honestly, I had a community I played online games with, but I left them because they started protecting russians who LITERALLY SAID IN PUBLIC CHAT derogatory things (in ruzzian of course, never in English), and everyone ignored me. Or, rather, they got defensive with NOT ALL RUSSIANS.

And we are called xenophobic. We. People who live through active war. Refugees, people who live days without electricity, water, and warmth. Children who are unable to go to school, because ruzzians destroyed it the evening before. People are scared to visit a hospital, because ruzzians target them constantly. Even a fucking mall - if there are a lot of people, and ruzzians send a missile - there will be a lot of casualties, it happened multiple times. Or when people are killed in their own homes, in beds, because ruzzians shelled the still sleeping city.

Even outside of Ukraine, I still get very nervous in crowds. I flinch when the helicopter passes by. Any loud noise? I'm jumping from fright, and my heart is racing. Fireworks? I want to be a small kid to cover my ears and scream (I'm preparing myself very hard for the holidays, because here they start fireworks like 25th of December and stop at 2nd of January, last year I went to hospital because I was pressing the earplugs so hard into my ear, they damaged the nerves there, and I was throwing up for three days straight. Yes, there is a law against fireworks. No, police gives no fucks, as per usual)