Always Awkward~

Speaking of Colors…

My Conspiracy Theory:

What the fuck is on your head, huh?

Roll for Seduction

I suppose this should be the perfect ending ✨

Which isn't a lot, but it's weird that it happened twice.

Speaking of Colors…

My Conspiracy Theory:

~ We've been sinking here slowly, turning into something unholy ~

Dude, I’ll make it easy, just replace ice cream flavors with shipping preference;

So what’s the grand gesture you might ask? Well of course it’s a good old times barnyard dance that is taking place at a random settlement that they had decided to take refuge in after retrieving Lucy from the clutches of her evil father.

Cue, the Ghoul/Cooper having a mental breakdown because he doesn’t really know how to be that kind gentleman again but maybe he never really was in the first place?

Imagine him in his cowboy gettup, freshen up of course to impress Lucy, staring in a mirror at himself, clutching wasteland flowers in his hand as he starts a whole monologue about how this Ghoul character is a just a costume and him being Cooper Howard was just a costume too because everybody just saw him as a movie Hollywood actor who player characters on Tv.

He didn’t know who he was… so why would he try to burden Lucy with all of this just because she was the only person who actually understood what it’s like to be forced into a mold to please others?

"The season 2 finale was [the most vulnerable moment] for me. Lucy feels quite directionless and lost in part of who she is, she's trying to find that moral compass but also literally geographically lost, where is she and what does she do in this moment?" -Ella Purnell

The Ghoul has said he and Lucy are the same person. He mostly says it like, I was stupid and you are still stupid.

What this really means is that both of them suffered extremely intimate, world-ending betrayals from important people they thought were their moral compasses.

This was devastating to Cooper Howard and profoundly changed him. He has been broken about this for centuries. Plus, the behaviors/motivations of Wasteland people are so screwy, amoral, and upsetting that he’s really stopped thinking about it at all. People aren’t people to him anymore. They are obstacles to finding his family.

But his situation is very much like Lucy’s, so being around her is reminding him of this prewar trauma that shattered him from a ship into planks.

He literally cannot help but see Lucy as a person. Even without a theory of mind, he can fully project himself onto her. He knows what she is going through because he’s done this.

He CARES about her because he can’t NOT care about her. Her mere proximity is forcing him to find his way back to himself. She is humanizing him.

So there’s a lot of complex interesting character work going on here. She is not a daughter to him; she IS him. She is a whole entire person when nobody else is. There is no avoiding it. Changing each other is inevitable.