days in my life

Disclaimer: I am not an expert, don’t burn your house down please. 

Aries : Rage, impulsivity and failure to get worked up about the things they normally do, oppositional but with less verve and energy

Taurus : Isolation, binge eating and lethargy, a sense of ‘me against the world’, less patience, easier to enrage

Gemini : Silence, nerves, over thinking, easily distractible and seems ‘elsewhere’; they are fairly intolerable to sadness they tend to detach/dissociate from feelings after a short while

Cancer : Teariness, neediness, isolation, binge eating, crying after insignificant events, stomach aches, a feeling of separation from everyone around them

Leo : Obvious displays of stress, they become like a wound up string and as if they are on the brink of a nervous break down. Short tempered and needy (only around close friends/family) and become martyred

Virgo: Isolation, heightened compulsions (cleaning, washing hands more etc;), unresponsive in conversations, at time blunt and more oppositional Libra : General feeling of instability/moodiness, reduced urge to socialize/be with friends, hopelessness, a feeling of being disliked/rejected by everyone, you can sense them ‘trying’ to be happy and keep composed

Scorpio : Isolation, opposition, hostility and violent mood swings. Intense melancholy with at times delusions and paranoia. Thoughts even scary to them, a sense of ‘me against the world’.

Sagittarius : Lethargy, escapism (substance use etc;), uncharacteristically more serious and tense, less tolerance, feelings of worry when thinking into the future

Capricorn : Demotivation, lethargy, hopelessness, over thinking, they seem tense and ‘overly alert’, hyper vigilant, force themselves to ‘go through the motions’, nothing impresses them

Aquarius : Uneasy, harder to ‘reach’; as if they are far away. Silence, isolation, detachment, even though they try to appear happy. Distracted

So fun fact: A career goal of mine is to make self defense jewelry like this ring here.

I designed this, and had it made specifically for me, to protect myself while maintaining my aesthetic. I was in a physically abusive relationship in my early 20’s and then when I escaped that, I had a stalker in college who was a serial rapist that had avoided being caught. Instead of worrying about my education, instead of worrying about my finals, I was worried about my life.

I got tired of being scared. I got tired of waiting for my impeding doom, I grew tired of the police telling me that my stalker could legally follow me wherever I went so long as he didn’t physically harm me.

I got tired of men wishing to harm me.

So, I did something about.

Carrying pepper spray wasn’t enough. Ya girl likes big purses and I would never find my pepper spray in time to defend myself in an emergency. So, I thought “if I had a ring that also worked as a weapon- I’d feel more in control.”

So, that’s what the fuck I did. I made a 100% steel metal ring that can be sharpened, resharpened, and sharpened again using a steel blade.

I’m happy to report that my stalker was eventually caught and sent to prison.

Anyway, my career goal is to make serious self defense jewelry. I think women would feel really empowered. I live downtown and I walk by myself to get to where I need to go, and I imagine there’s a lot of women like me out there that just want to get home safely, while looking fly and protected.

爱•死•你 // Love you to death