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I need Glam to suck as a person at the start of her musical. Her ego has been massively inflated by fame. I want her to be a little mean to the Starlets before they die. Framing herself as the centre of it all. I want people who have seen the NMT episodes to wonder how this could possibly be the same person who becomes Miss Holloway. And then I want the 'how' to make so, so much sense.

I DESPARATELY need Miss Holloway's real name to be the most generic, basic, Jane Doe name possible. I need her to actually be called Sarah Brown or something like that. I need her to DESPISE the name when she's a popstar, to refuse to answer to anything but Glam because she finds her real name so boring and awful. I need her to deeply, desparately long for it as Miss Holloway, to want nothing more than return to that normalcy, to hate herself for taking it for granted for so long. I also need her to still quietly long for the fame even after all those years as Holloway. I need her to be so impossibly unimportant without the Glam or Holloway alias and I need her to be agonizingly conflicted over it. I need her to get everything she wants to then get it violently ripped away from her and I need to cry about it.

glam likely caused many gay awakenings in the 80’s