[Shinsua]

The shape is different even if the feeling is the same

...

It feels weird to think there are people that would do nothing if they could continue to live comfortably

I guess there's something to the dream of doing nothing but reading, playing, diving into things...

But I think that's different. Somewhere in me. It's different. It's learning.

I'm just sick of feeling like a slug. Doing nothing, truly. Unhappiable. Frustrated in every way. Mad at everything and nothing simultaneously.

I just feel bad about not getting work done in any capacity

it's making me feel sorry for myself, and I truly, truly hate that

but I have also completely lost track of the past two weeks.

It feels like a month has dripped by (partly true), and I have nothing to show for it (partly truer).