shh, coffee break

october 11, 2021 quite a long post ahead woops~!

— uhmm hi :) it's been almost a year since my last post here and on my studygram too. the past months had been so hard for me, i felt like universe was actually playing games with me lol.

major update: today officially marks the start of my final year in uni 🥶

i don't know what to feel about it actually. where did the past years go? it seems like yesterday i was just a freshman who's so excited about her whole college experience and everything else that she could explore— in life and within herself. feels like im stuck in sophomore year, before pandemic happened and before everything shifted to online lectures and meetings. i remember i was out with friends having a drink after taking an exam on our major and then the next day, there's news and announcements about the spread of the virus. it all happened so fast and i feel like i was still in that moment and haven't moved forward. i spent my whole junior year online and will spend my senior year online too :( i wish i could go back to campus and attend face-to-face lectures, study in the library, discover new study spots/cafes, hangout with friends after a long day. i want to experience it all over again. but my country is ... whack~ this is a reminder to vote wisely and choose your leaders carefully!

anyway, i don't know what urged me to post and be back here and on my instagram. maybe this is me motivating myself to study harder and smarter. and to be productive i guess.

☕️ i read some of your messages and i am honestly very overwhelmed that there are still people finding out about this page and liking the stuff i post :< i can't promise that i'll be back on regular programming but here's a lil something for you ;) i appreciate all of you! i reply faster on my insta tho so come by if u want a chat hehe byebye~!

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november 01, 2020

— i’m struggling a lot with disciplining myself for all these self-studying. it’s hard to stay motivated while i am in the comfort of my room or home. i wish i could go out and study in a library or a coffee shop, but i don’t want to risk it knowing that we are still in a global pandemic. so i need to take a lot of force to discipline myself and be on track.

october 30, 2020

— the only thing that’s keeping me sane with all these online classes is food. if i’m not snacking during a lecture, i would probably be just dozing off :( 

october 15, 2020

— online classes finally started for me. this week is already my second week in and i can already feel the stress coming. the first week was basically for orientations and introductions. wish me luck!