He wanted to go to the stars, not just see them as dots of light through his telescope in his back yard. He wanted to high-five E.T. and bring him Reeseâs Pieces. He wanted to see if aliens really wore shiny jumpsuits or had antennas. He wanted to fly through nebulas and hop from constellation to constellation in a shiny silver rocket ship.
And then he grew a little older.Â
And he still wanted to go to the stars, even knowing it was mostly black out there, even knowing that the likelihood of meeting any aliens was slim to none. He daydreamed about meeting a hot alien prince or princess and theyâd fall in love and get married and he could watch twin moons set at night and a blue sun rise in the morning. And he memorized his constellations, worked hard on the calculations.
And then he grew a little older.
And he still wanted to go to the stars. He flew through Garrison classes, with the help of friends and a cup of coffee late at night that had gone cold yesterday. He loved the feeling of flight, soaring through the air, and his instructors had no complaints except that he shouldnât go too high. But he wanted to. This was good, but it was only a start.Â
And then he grew a little older.
And there was every reason to stay here on Earth. There was Adam and his illness and a position as a full-time instructor. A good job with good pay and good benefits, a man who loved him, and a disease that interstellar radiation would only exacerbate. Earth was safe, it was better for him and his health, and he could marry his love.
But he still wanted the stars.
More than safety, more than his own life.
He had to go.
His body was wasting away, and space would make it degenerate faster. But staying here meant letting his soul continue to erode until there was nothing left.
He wanted the stars, and he made his choice. And the stars held a danger he could never have known.Â
And even with a year of freedom as gone as his right arm, even with coming back to Earth, even with the danger of facing down a nearly-immortal galactic tyrantâŚÂ
âŚhe still wanted the stars.
And she does everything she can to give them to him.
And, in the night sometimes, they sneak out to the Black Lion.Â
She quiets the alarms of an unannounced departure.
And they go out to see the sights she can show him: a nebula here, a star nursery there. Sunrise and sunset on strange and distant worlds.
In the midst of war and death, he finds everything he ever wanted, here, with her.