But at What Cost?

I went on Instagram to look at something, I don't even remember what, and it just kinda made me sad. Not sure why. Sucks.

Fuck fucknfuck fuck idk I can't do this, I can't make this work. I can't. It won't. I can't I am breaking. I feel it. I feel feel feel feel it

I feel like something in me finally snapped

It would be nice to not have feelings like this

Being alive feels like too much work. Too much anxiety on a daily basis. Too many unknowns.

I am a ball of sadness often lately and idk when it will get better. The world just feels so terrible and I'm anxious about so much.

Those anons were so fucking awful? How can you actually talk to someone like that? I didn't even say anything aggressive about the politician! Why do you feel the need to tell me to die

You know...i miss self harm

My job is giving me mixed feelings about a lot of things...

Why do i keep getting groggy and in a bad headspace after eating lunch? It keeps happening at work and it just sucks

I feel fat fat far BIG FAT BAD BAD

Wanna scream AND BLEED AND CUT AND BRUISE. STOP SLIPPING BACK , relapses hurt, you cant afford it right now STOP

What is WRONG WITH MEEE FUUUCK I destroy my own life by thinking too much i cant let myself ever enjoy things