drafts of my despair

holnap kezdem az adhd gyógyszert, nagyon kíváncsi vagyok.

fuuuuck i just realized that the future idealized version of myself cant exist without current me being the catalyst for change and doing hard things. has anybody heard about this

“i’m gay” “i’m straight” okay??? well i wanna be yours?? i wanna be yours???? wanna be yours???? wanna be yours?? wanna be yours??

"it's all in your head" correct! unfortunately I am also in there

Mental illness is all in your head in the same way that prostate cancer is all in your ass.

this person wins everybody else go home

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maybe i can gaslight myself into being okay

wait this is just cognitive behavioral therapy

i love the feeling of getting “clearer” as you get older, like with each year there’s less room for messing around or pretending or playing a game with something you know deep in your heart is not right for you. it’s like your brain just gets better and better at cutting you off as you consider something and tells you “no that is not for me” before you can jump in. and it’s not as if things get more serious, but the opposite. you have freedom in giving yourself more and more permission to purposefully live life and go after whatever you want and to love freely knowing that things are secure in your heart and mind.. at least when i am struggling i know that the “clearing” is really what’s happening