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As pretty and confident as iam I’m very lonely in the sense of love/relationships, every thing will be going good literally perfect then one day the guy will just stop talking/distance himself and it’s always the same pattern and I never understood why, I’ve done lots of self reflection/inner work so i can be better as a whole but I keep getting the same outcome, at first I just thought maybe a person needs space or something of the sort and I give it to them and no matter if I’m attached or distant it doesn’t matter if I think negative or positive it always ends the same. I keep my faith that I’ll find someone but it’s hard seeing everyone else easily finding love and I’m just here existing. I can’t even feel sad or have any negative emotions towards my outcomes I just don’t think or talk about it because there’s point. What’s the whole point of even talking to someone and saying you want them to be your partner If you don’t really want to be in a relationship with them, and why can’t you just say that instead of just disappearing or just stringing them along? I could never be so unemotional or non empathetic towards a person even if I don’t necessarily like them I still have enough human decency to explain why I feel the way I do because I don’t want to keep that person in a mental loop. I would never want anyone to feel the way I do. I hate going through the things that I do, I deserve that fairytale relationship and at the end when I get it all the pain,anxiety and tears will be worth it. I’m tired of these “learning experiences” when it comes to love/relationships, I just want something real for once. It’s always “you’re so pretty” but I have no friends,no boyfriend,no nothing…NOTHING

I actually really like you I just want this time to be real so badly you said so yourself what we have is so different and clear you’re someone I’ve always wanted

I love me more than any relationship so I have to fall back like woah 💔

Every little thought every move I’ll be there you couldn’t get rid of me even if you tried you love me I’m the other half of you and together we are one

I knew you were coming before you even thought of your first move, we serve a purpose in one another’s lives but what you serve to me is way deeper than you could ever imagine

I need to start taking random pictures all day of my self I’m young and this is the best I’m going to look❤️

A homesickness for a home to which you cannot return,a home which maybe never was;the nostalgia,the yearning,the grief for the lost places of your past

I really just need my own space it’s time to leave

Normalize just casually banishing men that do things you don’t like into the cornfield of no return.. Hm I’m fucked up!? nah I’m not bitch I’m fucking REAL

Is a place where I long for. I just don’t get what I did or do to deserve this I fall for it every time and I always get hurt why won’t it just stop I don’t know why I was cursed with such a big sensitive heart and why it attracts the worse things i just want to be loved for who I really am and truly happy but maybe I’m just not built for it I don’t belong in this world that what it is something separates me from other people

Everything is fine but why the fuck are people so got damn loud why do you talk so fucking much shut the fuck got damn stop screaming it’s not funny it’s annoying I want you to shut the fuck up

The best advice I could give anyone when they really want to get back at someone psychologically is whenever you feel someone did you wrong instead of automatically reacting negatively just completely go silent and cut contact no matter how bad you want to talk to that person don’t and if you do have plans on hearing this person out be silent for days-weeks before saying anything doing this makes the person self reflect and think about their actions they automatically expect you to respond etc. but when you don’t say anything at all and act nonchalant it’ll make them wonder about you

You’re a fucking coward and I wouldn’t have never done this to you I wouldn’t have never ever done that to you. I didn’t deserve that I didn’t deserve any of it why couldn’t you just leave me alone why did you have to get feelings involved. You did me dirty and somehow still ended up on top never having to face consequences for what you did you can just walk away unfazed and just live your life. You’ll never see your own flaws and the crazy thing is I never even reached out first and I always think if I didn’t answer in the first place this never would’ve happened

I WILL NOT ACCEPT A LIFE I DO NOT DESERVE