CuriositySavedTheCat

I’m so fucking frustrated... Fine.. don’t compare myself to other people.. ok ok.. But even to my own standard, I feel like a fucking failure. I drag through the day so I can live the next. It’s now 11pm and I have no energy to practice. I can force myself but it’s literally torture. After every few minutes I repeat in the back of my head, I can’t do this. How am I suppose to practice with this terrible mindset.. I think.. better I go to sleep early now so I have the energy tomorrow. Will I make progress tomorrow? I guess that’s purely up to me.

Kinda fucking sucks I can’t talk to someone I live with. I initiate every conversation while you’re here, and they are ALWAYS minimal. Maybe one or twice a month you have something to say.. and 90% of that is just telling me about rent, or anything related. No actual conversations.. no interest.. fucking sucks.. feel alienated, disliked... really just a fucking nuisance... If I bring any of this up it will definitely make everything worse. I’m getting closer to asking you if even want to renew the lease.. and I’ve got nowhere else to go.. Back to my moms? I’ve got 0 friends... I need to socialize and I don’t know what the fuck to do...

Beyond sexually frustrated is now sexually vacant.

It’d be nice if I was actual friends with my roommate whom I’ve known all my life, instead of just occupying the same space at times. It’d also be nice if I understood why it’s so damn hard to socialize. Really.. without any talk of the matter I’m left to assume that I’m just impossible to interact with, so he just can’t stand it anymore.

incredibly horny.. almost all the time

If I can’t offer you anything, don’t fucking talk to me.

Here I am. Not feeling worth of expressing myself.

Is there a cap on sexual frustration... or does it just keep going?

I think I’m overdue to renew my intimacy 

Am I just too sensitiveeeeeeeeeeeeee

Random post about sexual frustration