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My parents are out

What should I do?

No I'm the good one

Not the alcoholic

Not the nicotine addict

Not the "bold one"

Am I?

I am though

They just don't think I would be

A bottle of white on an empty stomach

Just me n them giggling at nothing

"I FEEL SO NORMAL JUST WEIRD" I LAUGH

I feel alive

I feel good

Oh shit

Nvm

Which is worse?

Blood on my shoulders

Stomach

Arms

Or burning lungs, dialated pupils and the room spinning?

I don't do it too often. I'm not addicted

I tell myself this over and over

I'm not addicted I just do it once in a while

I tell myself

I just like the headrush

It's fun with friends

I tell myself

I'm not addicted.

So why do I do it alone when no one's around?

The white paper

The singing smell of tobacco

The aesthetic

But no one's around.

The burning red cone

It burns closer to my fingers

Headrush

Woo I feel lightheaded

(these are all kinda mash ups of other peoples head cannons and my own imagination)

this one will be a bit longer than the ship posts

⚠️ TW for Ab.se ⚠️ (only mentions)

SIRIUS

Him and Regulus both know French fluently and commonly use it too communicate at Hogwarts. At home they couldn't speak unless it was in French, unless they wanted to get in trouble. He was definitely the sassiest, most sarcastic and most dramatic out of everyone in Hogwarts, never mind in the marauders. (though remus wasn't far behind with his sarcasm) He if the biggest flirt out of the marauders and has his own fan club. He has always created this "I dont really care about any bs" facade but really hes extremely caring and gentle and sweet when he wants to be. When he was in fourth year he saw a first year crying in the hallway at the start of Christmas break, he instantly knew why, and sat beside them and held them to his chest, telling them to focus on his breathing. "back there, its not home, here is....Alright?" For that whole Christmas break that first year hung out with the marauders.

⚠️TW starts⚠️

At home his mother used to yell a him until he was in tears, so now he never ever backs down during an argument because he never wants to feel that way again. Him and Regulus used to write notes to each other in English so their parents wouldnt find out what they were planning. Sirius has PTSD nightmares every night, so one time in second year James heard Sirius silently sobbing under his sheets so he got up and hopped in next to Sirius and hugged him. "Padfoot, its alright, im here. Now stop sobbing and sleep" and from then on Sirius hopped in with James every time he had a nightmare. He was so used to verbal ab.se that he genuinely didnt care when people criticised or yelled at him, unless it was someone he genuinely cared about, so once when McGonnagle was shouting at him and he flinched, she just sighed and sat down. "would you like some tea Mr. Black?" "Sorry...whut?" "I asked if you would like some tea" That was one of the first times he understood why people loved their moms.

⚠️TW ends⚠️

(these are kind of mash ups of other peoples head cannons and my own imagination)

JILLY

(these are all kinda mash ups of other head cannons and my own imagination)

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