Harry Potter is trending at #1 on tumblr so I thought I’d take the opportunity to say fuck JKR, fuck transphobes, fuck her stupid books, her theme park, her endless landfill fodder merch slop, and her fucking castle on a hill. Read another book yall!! Read another book!!!!!!!
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hey. you have to love your trans brothers of color okay. and your trans sisters of color. and your nonbinary siblings of color. you have to okay. its simply non-optional
I wanted to share some more of these, specifically trans women of color. The images I'm posting are from a project called To Survive On This Shore and it's an interview project. I am only posting a handful so it's so worth checking out!
This is Linda, 60
Alexis, 64
Helena, 63
Kendrah, 72 (!!)
Tasha, 65
It was deeply healing to me to discover this project. The site has selected photos and attached interviews and it's definitely worth your time. I didn't include any because the focus of this post imo is transfems but there are a lot of beautiful interviews with transmasc people too if you're interested! But that'll have to be another post 💖
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Summary: Steve helps you slow down your morning when you wake up with increased joint instability and pain
Warnings: fluff, chronic pain, mention of joint dislocation, orthotic braces (knee and AFO braces), brief sexual innuendoes, mention of spanking, joking about illness/disability
A/N: this specific character has hEDS, POTS, mobility issues, and uses AFOS, knee braces, and mobility aids. But everyone with EDS is different and requires different tools.
Word count: 962
Ehlers Danlos Sydrome- a group of genetic, connective tissue disorders that cause the body's "glue" (collagen) to be faulty, leading to loose joints, stretchy skin, and fragile tissue throughout the body.
You wake with your whole body aching. Your muscles are sore and pain shoots through your joints as you roll over.
“Morning, darlin’,” Steve smiles, looking wide awake next to you.
How long has he been awake? Was he just watching you sleep?
“Morning,” you respond sleepily, snuggling into his arms.
Steve rubs firm, warm circles on the spot between your shoulder blades that feels like it was ripped apart in your sleep. How did he know?
“Okay, let’s go,” you groan, trying to sit up.
“Where do you think you’re going?” Steve laughs, pulling you back down in bed.
“Patrol, Steven!” You giggle.
“I switched with Bucky,”
“What? Why would you do that?”
“Love,” Steve starts gently, “You were tossin’ and turnin’ all night. I could hear your joints clickin’ and popping,”
“It’s fine,” you groan.
“We’re having a slow morning,” Steve says firmly.
“But-”
Steve interrupts you with his lips.
“Slow,” he mumbles against your lips, kissing you leisurely.
You melt into the kissing, allowing him to slowly explore your lips before pulling away.
Steve slowly sits you up, giving your body time to adjust before moving from behind you. He moves onto his knees at the side of the bed, gently pulling you so your aching legs hang off the bed.
You wince as he starts slowly stretching out one of your legs, holding the kneecap firmly in place as he does so to prevent dislocation.
“That hurt?” He asks.
“It’s sore,” you admit.
“You did too much walking yesterday,” he grumbles, moving to massaging the sore muscles.
“Less than half of what you did!” you huff. Steve looks at you with a wry look.
“Which of us is a super soldier and which of us has a connective tissue disease?”
“Slander!” You say with mock outrage, leaning back on your hands.
Steve moves onto the other leg, following the same steps of rotating between stretching and massaging.
He takes his time rolling your compression socks on before. He pulls out your orthotic knee braces, strapping them on for you before gently gripping your feet.
“How are your ankles today, sweetheart?” He asks.
You open your mouth to lie, but your face scrunches up as he slowly flexes your foot. Steve hums, picking up your AFOs and strapping them on.
“You’re no fun,” you whine as he zips your orthotic shoes on.
“Keeping your joints in place is very fun,” Steve chuckles, kissing your cheek, “Now, what kinda day is it? Crutches or walker? Or wheelchair?”
“Walker,”
“Don’t move,” Steve orders, getting up and moving into the bathroom.
Steve returns pushing your walker with a stack of clothes on the seat.
“Ummm, that’s actually for you, old man,” you joke.
“Hey, careful who you’re calling old!” Steve laughs.
“Yeah, I think it was actually your joints you heard popping all night. I hear it happens with old age,”
Steve presses you back on the bed, careful of your joints as he hovers over you.
“I’d spank you ass for that if you weren’t already hurting,” he purrs, voice dripping with amusement.
“Don’t threaten me with a good time,” you smirk.
“Oh, what am I gonna do with you?” Steve laughs as he sits you up.
Steve hands you the stack of clothes and watches as you tug off your sleep shirt and start dressing. His eyes are amused, slightly heated, but mostly observant.
“Hopefully something involving food,”
You pull the skirt on as much as you can sitting down. Steve leans down, slipping his hands under your ass before slowly standing you up. He uses his grip on your ass to support your weight as your head spins, your nails digging into his arms.
“Take your time,” he whispers in your ears, “I’m enjoying your ass in my hands,”
“Steve!” You laugh, moving to tug the skirt up over his hands.
“Yeah, I think I’ll just hold this all day. Make sure it doesn’t go anywhere,”
“You perv,”
“Your perv,” He corrects, slowly loosening his grip so more weight is eased onto your legs. You burrow your face into his neck, biting your lips as your knees shake under you weight.
“Let me know if you’re gonna pass out on me, darlin’,”
“Nah, I’ve got better things to do today. But I’ll let you know if I get bored later and wanna have a medical episode,”
You brace one hand on his shoulder, using the other to grab your walker. Steve takes a step back as you get your balance with the walker, taking slow steps with its support. Pain shoots through your shoulders as you rely on the walker for more support.
Steve walks carefully behind you as you walk to the kitchen. Wanda is sitting at the table, Natasha on the couch.
“You see this?” You call, “This old man is stalking me! He won’t leave me alone! He’s making me take care of myself,”
“Terrible, want me to beat him up?” Natasha asks.
“Always,” you smile.
“Hey!” Steve gasps, “I thought we were friends!"
“I don’t know, Steve, I think we’d all take you down for your girl,” Wanda responds jokingly.
“Told you,” you stick your tongue out at him. You grumble as Steve makes you sit down as he makes breakfast.
“Here you go, love,” Steve smiles, kissing the top of your head as he sets a plate and a small cup of meds down in front of you.
“Thank you,”
You swallow the meds down with a sip of water. The two of you stay mostly silent as you eat your breakfast, making small talk with Natasha and Wanda occasionally.
Your eyes keep straying back to Steve, fighting a smile. He’s so caring, so gentle with your body and your heart. So perfect.
a/n: happy may the fourth! welcome back star wars era remy :)
warnings: real acknowledgement of maul being disabled so if that makes you uncomfortable you can piss right off! this is a very vague x reader. set whenever you feel like it, just post-slice-n-dice.
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"You once said you were indifferent to pain."
Their hands remained gentle as they loosened his left shin prosthetic from the grooves where it fit against his metal thigh.
"I am." he gritted out, wishing they would just service his limbs in silence like the Mandalorians.
Shin removed, they could clean inside the rivets of the thigh piece, and he tried to pretend he didn't still have some semblance of discomfort twinging in his phantom thigh.
"Is is hard for you to let others do this? I am sure you might be capable of doing it yourself." they continue to clean gently, free hand gentle as it stabilizes his thigh.
"I don't like looking at it." Maul shuts the rest of the conversation down with a slight flick of the force--a warning pressure at their throat.
They work in silence, cleaning the opposite thigh with their head down. He doesn't feel bad. Too many questions. Even the youngest Zarbrak on his team knew not to ask too many questions.
Whatever pain he had been imagining eventually subsided, but it always took too much time for his liking. He supposed he should be grateful that it wasn't any pieces higher up his body. The seams where his flesh met the metal molds were the worst, each wince shooting all the way up his spine.
When they reattach the shin pieces, he kicks out both his legs from the side of the med table.
Stretching the left out first, then the right, they give Maul an approving nod.
"Anything feel loose?"
"No. It is satisfactory."
Letting his metal boots touch the floor, Maul felt all the pressure from his upper body rest upon the prosthetics. Balanced as it was supposed to be, a thin stream of the force trickled through the prosthetics so he could trick himself into believing he still had feeling in the soles of his feet.
"Do you need your-"
"I changed it earlier. I can do that myself." More pressure on their throat. This time, it almost hurt.
They packed up the kit of tools and cleanser, one of the few items that made it out of Mandalore. Maul supposed he could thank the empire for removing tariffs on the cleanser--it was, after all, the same one they used on their droids. That little dehumanizing fact almost negated the price.
The look they gave him before turning away wasn't of pity, too gentle for his taste, but not entirely soft. It made him pause, reaching out with the force.
Very carefully, he probed into their mind. They stood still in the doorway, clearly able to feel it. Not that he usually took the time to hide his exploration.
He saw himself, as he usually did when he was reaching into someone's mind. Usually, it was dark images, blurry black edges from their fear. He would be quicker, stronger, scarier in their mind.
The image he saw now was different.
Quick and strong, yes. Scary, a little bit. The fear they felt around him was more of an afterthought--or a pre-thought. They knew what he was capable of, yes, perhaps more than several on the team. Yet the fear did not completely consume their vision of him. The darkness was only a slight vignette around the edges. It could grow and consume them, yes, but only when he decided to.
The oddest thing that struck him was that there was no pity.
They had seen him refuse any help, they had seen him entirely rely on others, they had seen all the parts of him that were no longer there. Metal parts that could be found in a scrapheap, if he looked hard enough.
But there wasn't any pity. Concern was different, and allowed only because it seemed to take subservience to their awe.
Awe, yes, that is what it was. Like the first time he saw a star that was not the hostile red sun of Dathomir. Even the cold energy of his Master watching him look out the ship's window did not dampen his awe.
Perhaps it was the same now. Even though they had seen him weak--frustrated and at the mercy of the toolbox and whether his body could withstand more pain, their awe was not subdued.
Memories of theirs flashed through both minds: him speaking at a meeting (how mundane), cutting a droid cleanly in half, and practicing his forms. Things anyone could do, and yet...
There were, of course, more impressive memories. Some squadron he took out. Some other meddling crime boss he talked down to. Him sitting sideways on a throne, pretending it was always his home.
The pathetic memories were there, too. Biting through his teeth till they bled when they fixed a joint near his hip. A loose shin fitting to the thigh piece, causing him to fall to one knee. Weak, weak, weak, but those were just his own thoughts.
One was far more intimate than they probably wanted him to read. One of their hands is on his bare chest, stabilizing him as they service some part of his metal body on his hip. He was hurting, of course, both hearts beating far too fast. One hand is curling into the sheets, and the other is coming up to dig his nails into their wrist.
"Breathe." they had whispered, quickly fixing the issue before he could yank them away.
With one final prod of a tool, it was over, and he released their wrist. Tiny pinpricks of blood seeped to the surface of their skin. But they kept their hand there, flat against his tattooed skin, waiting for his heartbeat to go down.
Their hand had been so warm, too warm.
He had gently wiped the blood away with his own hand, enough of an apology to suit them both. No thank-yous, either, as usual. The memory told Maul they didn't mind, either. All they could think about was the two heartbeats, slowing down to match the pulse from their own wrist--
"One of the new troops will help you next time." They said curtly, shutting down the memory.
“Don’t look at me like that.” Frederick spits at you from where he stands by the vanity in the bedroom.
“Like what?” You ask, although with more force than you really had to and you felt the shame of it for only a second.
Frederick watches as you pace from across the room, his hand supporting himself against the vanity of the bedroom. His bedroom that he just welcomed you into, to be exact, but he wasn’t going to directly tell you to go away. That wasn’t the goal. He even didn’t even know what he wanted out of this spat he started, but he did it anyways. Attention? Any attention was good attention really, even as you glared at him in frustration. He always did this. How were you not sick of him yet? Validation? Yeah, because being self deprecating about your appearance was really the best way to have your partner validate you! What genius thinking, Mister Butchered Psychiatrist! Frederick heard the thoughts reverberate in his head, but refused to give any inkling of backing down in a way that might hurt his ego. Frederick’s face remained neutral despite his change in footing to better lean against the vanity and shift his weight onto the furniture.
You stopped in your pacing, having to take a double take to where Frederick is. He’s half leaning against the wall and vanity, changing his footing. His eyes don’t leave you, his eyebrows don’t raise like he thought he said something so intelligent that it negated all other others. You can see a wince flash across his face for just a second though and your frustration was replaced by concern. He almost never brought his cane into the bedroom, wanting to keep its “outside germs” contained to literally anywhere else but where he slept. You didn’t understand, trying to gently bug him into just getting a simple cane for the bedroom in times like this when you noticed his limps before bed. He refused, sometimes got snippy. It was his own house and body, so you didn’t push it. However, it seemed more obvious that maybe he was just lashing out a bit because he’s in pain and doesn’t want to ask for help. So, you step closer slowly and let your tone soften, like someone would for a scared animal almost. You don’t dare to say that part out loud.
“Do you need your cane? I can grab it, Freddy-” You begin to offer, but the sudden change in tone seems to catch Frederick off-guard.
Frederick’s green eyes scan you over, seeing if this is somehow a cruel joke, then he breaks his gaze. He doesn’t make eye contact, as if he’s ashamed by his next answer.
“No. I don’t.”
“I can grab it, it’s really not a problem.” You offer again, honestly just wanting to help him now, then take another step closer and corner him without realizing.
Frederick stiffens, feeling hot warm pricks along the back of his neck and down his back. He really doesn’t like being cornered and quickly interpreted your sudden change as manipulation, getting something out of him, or it’s just a joke again. He hated that. He couldn’t stand that. He buried all the memories of his time in school before university deep down to never be addressed again, yet he was so quick to think he was back in those positions. He couldn’t interpret their words or smiles. He can’t understand yours now! You were overwhelming him as you come with about a foot of distance, going to grab his free hand. Frederick flinches and moves to support himself less on the vanity, the weight instantly shifting back to his core, where he was having a flare with scarring, and his feet that were already sore from work earlier. He feels the dull ache hit his joints and the tender flesh inside of him, but he just lets the pain come out with a cracked voice.
“I’m fine! Stop looking at me like you love me!”
“W-What..?” You pause, needing to ingest that for a minute.
So, he was trying to shove you away because he was just insecure. Again. Ah, well, even if it’s annoying or frustrating, you knew you could certainly handle that. The issue was that he was acting like a scared dog and if you didn’t figure out what exactly was getting him to escalate from the loathing in his voice to being tense, then he wasn’t going to listen.
“What are you on about?” You ask with a bit of a relieved sigh and slight smile.
That was alarming to him. You could see him readjust his foot and how his fingers clung to the side of the vanity for support, turning his knuckles white.
“Stop looking like you’re caring. I’m not stupid. Give it up.” Frederick demands, the crack in his voice gone to fully mask himself.
Your eyebrows furrow and you let both your gaze and smile drop. Where was this coming from? Did someone say something to him? But, your gaze follows where the vanity connects to him and then to the wall. And you’re also keeping him in. Oh.
You step back, glancing behind you for his bed before sitting yourself on the edge. That opens up his space and while you would hope he wouldn’t deflect or run from the conversation that he started, it still gave him the mental pathway to run if he needed and in turn, feel safer. He does, his posture slouches a little, but his face remains the same type of defensive.
“You can go. I would rather be alone than deceived.” Frederick says, finally crossing the line of telling you to leave, which he didn’t really want, but this was the line of thinking he decided to go with.
Your mouth falls open for a moment, then you shut it and slip off his bed. Without a word, you walk past him and shut his bedroom door behind you. Frederick can hear your footsteps become more distant, as he presumed you went down the stairs and to the front of the door. The jingle of his doorknob only confirmed it, so he tuned out the rest of the noise. Your absent presence was already stinging in his chest, tearing its nails into his heart and the shame of pushing you away making his guts sick, but it hurt less than rejection. He still won this battle and at least he was in control still. He would, however, need his cane sooner than later. The ache and throbbing in his raised scars along with joints was becoming more of a priority than his self-induced heartbreak.
Frederick leaned forward, using both of his hands to hold onto the vanity and to guide himself along it to make it to the bedroom door. He limped, his hip hit the corner of the vanity hard when he lost his footing for misremembering where one of the vanity legs were. He sucked a sharp breath in and squeezed his eyes shut, wanting the temporary pain of that to wash through it and just pass before just getting the remaining two feet to the door.
Then, the bedroom door opens again, and startles Frederick. He jumps and hunches over the vanity, the table part of it digging into his stomach absolutely where the lower end of his abdominal scar was. He refuses to let a pained groan leave his lips though, especially since you had come back and startled him. Just a stifled, distress gasp left him as he’s hunched over with his eyes squeezes shut. He was worried he might start crying if he moved too soon, especially with your watch. This was shameful. On every level.
You, however, just come behind him and wrap an arm around his waist, but above his scar. You gently pull him back, mumbling words he couldn’t quite understand about how he could lean on you. Your warm hand just squeezed under his, rubbing where his chest meets his upper arms, and your tugging did take the pressure off his stomach. It was an instant wave of relief inside Frederick, but still stung a little from being touched this roughly in the first place. Frederick opened his eyes, seeing your arm hold him, and he felt held. Secure. His hands still supported at least his upper body, but he let his middle lean into you. Before he could say anything to drive you away, your other hand comes into his vision and offers his cane.
“Take it. You can lean on me, but take your mobility aid.”
Frederick cringes a little at what you deem what his cane is, but he knows you are actually correct. It is a mobility aid, as much as he wants to pretend it’s just a fashion statement, but admitting that to himself was embarrassing. It shouldn’t. He was attacked, maimed, injured. He’s allowed to use mobility aid such as canes, but it always just came back as something he should have been better for as to not rely on it. With a swallowing of his pride, he takes the metal head of his cane into the palm of his hand and shifts to lean his weight onto that instead of you. You hold him until he slips away with ease, but stay still to watch him. Just to be safe.
“You can go. Thank you.” Frederick mutters, feeling your eyes on him.
“I’m not leaving. I love you.” You insist.
Frederick clicks his tongue, stepping beside you but he can’t make eye contact still. You cock your head and reach for him, tugging his suit jacket sleeve on his free hand. He stills, but doesn’t turn around. Why couldn’t you just leave him be?
“I.. I am going to bake something. You can find me in the kitchen when you want.. Me.” You finish, the disappointment clear in your voice.
Frederick nods silently and you feel there’s nothing else to say. He was being insistent on you to leave, at least let him decompress or something. You didn’t want to leave him be though on the worry he might fall though, just for one. He was capable, but he was still your partner despite his attempts to shove you away.
You let your grip loosen, then get by him slowly. He hears your footsteps disappear down the stairs again and he’s left in his bedroom to be alone with multiple stinging emotions he would rather repress in his chest.
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A few hours pass in mostly silence. You bake a basic pan of brownies in his kitchen downstairs and while he has a full pantry and refrigerator, he’s missing some basic ingredients to do baking. It’s clear he doesn’t do it often, or at all. He’s missing brown sugar, baking power, and even cocoa powder! He does have a very expensive bottle of vanilla extract in his cabinets though, with real vanilla beans it looks like. Your respect for his kitchen is restored by that, but minus the oven going off to say it’s preheated, it’s too quiet. You don’t hear Frederick move upstairs. Maybe he took a nap.
When around five ‘o clock comes around, you finally see a shadow from your peripheral vision standing there. You turn and jump upon seeing Frederick, nervously giggling and coming to him.
“Sorry, you scared me, Freddy!”
Frederick isn’t tense, but he is using his cane still. However, a bigger anxiety fills your stomach when he just stands still instead. His eyes were watery, even his bottom lip was cracked from biting it looked like.
“Frederick..?”
Upon that, Frederick wraps his free arm around you and pulls you to him. You hug back in a heartbeat, but your hand starts rubbing his back when you feel him jerk. You hear a hiccup, then feel warm tears slip from his nose and cheeks onto the exposed flesh of your neck as he hides his face in it. He clings to you tightly, with need. With anxiety. He didn’t mean his words and he honestly just felt relieved to see you where you said you would be.
“What’s been going on today, Frederick?” You ask, tilting your head to press a tender kiss to his fluffy hair.
Frederick jerks, harshly sucking in a breath of cold air, then forces his voice to work again.
“I’m s-sorry.. Why do you want me? I.. I use a cane. I’m scarred. I..”
“Shhhh.. Oh, Freddy..” You start, trailing off when you try prying yourself away to see his face. He doesn’t let you. Despite how weak he might feel, his grip can hold you in place quite easily.
“Frederick.. You make me laugh. You’re funny and intelligent. You’re charming. You have everything planned and organized. You learned my routine and you listen to me when you’re not all up in your own head. I like being around you. I like your touch. Your kisses. You. You know being disabled doesn’t erase any of that.. Right?”
Frederick sobs, his shoulders jerking, but you feel him shake his head “no”.
i keep getting thorinxbilbo ship art on my feed and that has inspired me to read the hobbit for the first time so thanks for that (gen i need something to be passionate about again)
Summary: Aftercare always makes you a little softer...
word count: 549
Warnings: post-sex scene, aftercare, chronic pain, hip pain, disability/chronic illness discussion, emotional vulnerability, references to past relationship neglect, relationship anxiety, intimacy, touch, affectionate teasing
Authors note: Here you go guys I have so much on these two this probably takes place before Baran, but months into their situationship. So Trin is an R2 in this closer to season 2
Afterward the room was quiet except for both of you breathing slowly evening out.
The soft yellow light from your bedside lamp cast long shadows across the blankets while rain tapped faintly against the windows outside.
Trinity lay flat on her back beneath you, hair messy against the pillow, skin still warm and flushed. You could see the sweat droplets on her skin.
You shifted carefully on top of her with a small tired sound before settling your head against her chest. Trinity’s hands moved instinctively over your back. Soft and grounding.
“For aftercare,” you mumbled against her skin, voice rough with exhaustion, “can you rub my back?”
“Mmhm.” Her fingers immediately started tracing slow circles on your heated skin. “You okay?”
“My left hip’s hurting.”
Trinity’s hands paused briefly.
“Why didn’t you tell me, baby?”
You let out a sleepy hum.
“Didn’t feel it in the moment.”
Which was true. Adrenaline and pleasure and endorphins. Sometimes your body let you forget itself for a little while before demanding repayment afterward.
Trinity’s touch softened instantly. One hand slid lower, carefully rubbing near your hip while the other continued up your spine. A soft moan coming out of you, not a sexual one, but certainly one of pleasure.
“You push through too much,” she murmured quietly.
You cracked one eye open slightly.
“Says the emergency medicine R2.”
“That’s different.” She tries to counter.
“It literally isn’t.”
Trinity snorted softly. You melted further against her while she kept rubbing your back in slow steady motions. Her fingers working over the knot of muscles by your hip, gripping her a little tighter.
Honestly this part scared you more than the sex sometimes. The softness afterward. The staying. Your ex used to leave bed immediately after intimacy near the end. Like closeness itself became exhausting, but Trinity always touched you afterward. Absent-mindedly. Naturally. Like she couldn’t help it and honestly she probably couldn’t help it. A long time ago when she was just an intern you had noticed how much she wanted to reach people, but never could.
“You’re thinking too hard,” Trinity murmured suddenly.
You lifted your head slightly to look at her.
“How do you know that?”
“You get this wrinkle right here.” She brushed lightly between your brows. “And then you go all quiet.”
You stared at her for a second.
Then deadpanned “That’s rude and deeply invasive..”
“You gave me apartment access.” She shrugs with a smirk.
“That was clearly my first mistake.” Trinity laughed softly beneath you before her hand returned to your hip again. This time she was more gentle, fingers working over your muscles carefully.
“Tell me if I hit a bad spot,” she murmured.
Something uncomfortable and warm twisted low in your chest at the automatic concern in her voice.
So naturally…you deflected.
“Santos.”
“Yeah?”
“If you keep acting tender after sex I’m gonna have to start charging you by the hour for emotional recovery services.”
Her laugh vibrated beneath your cheek.
“Too late, psych menace.” Her fingers slid slowly through your hair now. “I fear I’m already attached.”
Your stomach flipped unpleasantly hard at that. Dangerous. Very dangerous.
So you hid your face back against her chest before she could see how much those words affected you.
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OKAY, RECEIVED. ( PART 2 )— RYLAND GRACE x Male!READER
SUMMARY: Distance means nothing to the destined and the damned.
# # TAGS: Epistolary, Transcripts, Single Dad!Reader, Doctor!Reader, Teacher!Ryland Grace, Miscommunication, You've Got Mail Type Beat, Petrova Taskforce
## WARNINGS: No Beta, Formatting this was a Nightmare. This fic contains a lot of media, but don’t worry as alt text is available. I find that it's quite difficult to read this in light mode, so dark mode is recommended. Edits made by me, images sourced from Pinterest. Basically I've just fucking lost it. Enjoy.
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PETROVA TASKFORCE
ARCHIVAL TRANSCRIPT
TRANSCRIPT ID: COMM-LOG-INT-88
FREQUENCY: CH-09 (INTERNAL SECURITY / MEDICAL RELAY)
DATE: ▇▇, ▇▇ / 20:15 UTC
[ AUDIO START. ]
[20:15:02] MED-UNIT-B (DR. ▇▇▇ ):
Watch-Command, this is Attending Physician, Unit B. Metabolic panels for Sector 4 are complete. Requesting clearance to log off the active medical net for the evening. Over.
[20:15:15] WATCH-COMMAND (MILLER):
Copy that, Doctor. Metabolic logs received by central grid. Clearance granted at 20:15 hours. Secure your handset and switch to standby status. Over.
[20:15:17] HAB-DECK-B (BIRDIE):
[ AUDIO FEEDBACK. ]
This thing on? Over.
[20:15:19] MED-UNIT-B (DR. ▇▇▇ ):
Birdie, what did I tell you about using the tactical frequencies? Switch to the house channel. Over.
[20:15:22] HAB-DECK-B (BIRDIE):
House channel is very quiet and no one responds to me. Over.
[ SILENCE. ]
[ FAINT CHATTER. ]
[20:16:02] HAB-DECK-B (BIRDIE):
I’m bored. Over.
[20:16:05] MED-UNIT-B (DR. ▇▇▇ ):
Young lady.
[20:16:08] HAB-DECK-B (BIRDIE):
What’s for dinner? Over.
[20:16:13] WATCH-COMMAND (MILLER):
Hab-Deck-B, be advised this frequency is reserved for operational data and emergency triage. Clear the net. Over.
[20:16:20] HAB-DECK-B (BIRDIE):
Hi, Miller.
[20:16:23] WATCH-COMMAND (MILLER):
Hi, Miss Birdie.
[20:16:30] MED-UNIT-B (DR. ▇▇▇ ):
Apologies, Command. The civilian asset will be contained. Heading to quarters now. Unit B, actual, out.
[ AUDIO START. ]
[20:17:05] MED-UNIT-B (DR. ▇▇▇ ):
Okay, I'm on twelve.
Birdie, do you copy?
[20:17:11] HAB-DECK-B (BIRDIE):
Loud and clear!
[20:17:16] MED-UNIT-B (DR. ▇▇▇ ):
What are you botherin’
us for.
[20:17:22] HAB-DECK-B (BIRDIE):
Nothing. Just wanted
to chat.
[20:17:27] MED-UNIT-B (DR. ▇▇▇ ):
Okay.
[ PAPERS SHUFFLING. ]
What do you wanna
chat about?
[20:17:35] HAB-DECK-B (BIRDIE):
I dunno. What did you
do today?
[20:17:41] MED-UNIT-B (DR. ▇▇▇ ):
Lotta tough work. We’re doing as many trials as we can, putting folks to sleep.
'Course the issue isn't actually getting them to sleep. We can throw a dozen different sedatives into the line and knock a subject out in under two minutes. The real problem's the metabolic maintenance.
[20:17:54] HAB-DECK-B (BIRDIE):
Medically-induced comas are so fascinating.
[20:18:04] HAB-DECK-B (BIRDIE):
Yeah. It's like a pause button. They could close their eyes in your lab, sleep for four years, and when they wake up, it'll feel like only hours have passed. You're like -- removing them from time.
Super cool.
[20:18:08] MED-UNIT-B (DR. ▇▇▇ ):
Other twelve-year-old kids don’t usually think so.
[20:18:13] HAB-DECK-B (BIRDIE):
They’re missing out.
Oh, hey! I got so much mail today! Everyone wrote me back and I got a bunch of gifts!
[20:18:25] MED-UNIT-B (DR. ▇▇▇ ):
[ BACKGROUND CHATTER. ]
Run the analysis again.
Thank you, Doctor.
What sorta gifts?
[20:18:34] HAB-DECK-B (BIRDIE):
It’s so funny.
I have six winter hats now.
They're all from my friends.
[20:18:43] MED-UNIT-B (DR. ▇▇▇ ):
Winter hats?
[20:18:47] HAB-DECK-B (BIRDIE):
Yeah, they think I’m in Antarctica, remember?
[20:18:52] MED-UNIT-B (DR. ▇▇▇ ):
Oh, yeah.
[20:18:56] HAB-DECK-B (BIRDIE):
I love them all.
I might as well wear them around the facility. They’re pretty cute.
[20:19:07] MED-UNIT-B (DR. ▇▇▇ ):
That’s nice.
You got a favorite?
[20:19:12] HAB-DECK-B (BIRDIE):
Yeah, there's this fox one. Wraps around my ears.
I got a ton of
stickers, too.
Olivia gave me fifty
sheets.
[20:19:24] MED-UNIT-B (DR. ▇▇▇ ):
That’s too many stickers.
[20:19:28] HAB-DECK-B (BIRDIE):
No such thing!
[ STATIC. ]
[ SILENCE. ]
[20:19:50] HAB-DECK-B (BIRDIE):
I miss them. Over.
[ STATIC. ]
[ SILENCE. ]
[20:20:12] MED-UNIT-B (DR. ▇▇▇ ):
I know, baby.
[20:20:18] HAB-DECK-B (BIRDIE):
[ SIGH. ]
[20:20:23] MED-UNIT-B (DR. ▇▇▇ ):
I wish things
were different. Over.
[20:20:30] HAB-DECK-B (BIRDIE):
I don’t.
Don't ask me to go
back again.
[20:20:36] HAB-DECK-B (BIRDIE):
I’m okay as long as
you’re here. Over.
[ AUDIO END. ]
PETROVA TASKFORCE
ARCHIVAL TRANSCRIPT
TRANSCRIPT ID: COMM-LOG-INT-88
DATE: ▇▇, ▇▇ / 20:45 UTC
[02:45:01] [ AUDIO START. ]
[02:45:04] DR. ▇▇▇:
>> _This is Dr. ▇▇▇, Attending Physician and Lead Coordinator for the Comagenesis Division, Petrova Taskforce. Recording audio log from Auxiliary Lab Four, Observation Suite B.
>> _I am accompanied on deck by senior research leads Dr. Annalise Bautista and Dr. Ethan Jackson.
>> _The time is... 0245 hours.
[02:45:32] DR. ▇▇▇:
>> _We are currently observing Subject 0-42, cleared for Trial Phase 3-B at approximately 1800 hours yesterday following a titrated intravenous infusion of the revised neuro-suppressive cocktail.
>> _Current physiological vitals are stable, but highly volatile.
>> _Core body temperature is holding at thirty-four point two degrees Celsius. Heart rate is suppressed to twenty-eight beats per minute.
[02:45:58] DR. BAUTISTA:
>> [ DISTANCE VOICE, SLIGHTLY MUFFLED. ]
>> _I'm seeing a minor spike in baseline levels. Cortical micro-arousals are beginning to register in the occipital lobe on Monitor 2.
[02:46:09] DR. ▇▇▇:
>> _Copy that. Increase the paralytic drip by zero point five milligrams per hour. Let's keep the receptors dark before the twitching triggers a full cycle.
[02:46:21] DR. JACKSON:
>> [ KEYBOARD TYPING. ]
>> _Adjusting the line now.
>> [ KEYBOARD TYPING. ]
[02:46:35] DR. BAUTISTA:
>> _Think this one'll work?
[02:46:39] DR. ▇▇▇:
>> _Too early to tell. Cross your fingers.
[ SILENCE. ]
[ FAINT SHUFFLING. ]
[02:46:58] DR. JACKSON:
>> _Hey, what do you guys think about Stratt?
[02:47:04] DR. BAUTISTA:
>> [ KEYBOARD TYPING. ]
>> _What about Stratt?
[02:47:08] DR. JACKSON:
>> _I don’t know. Just - -
>> _Stratt.
[02:47:13] DR. BAUTISTA:
>> _Like, a general idea?
[02:47:16] DR. JACKSON:
>> _Yeah, something like that.
[02:47:20] DR. BAUTISTA:
>> _I’m not sure.
>> _She’s very severe, I guess. In a good way. She gets things done regardless of how crazy it may seem.
[02:47:31] DR. JACKSON:
>> _She feels a little disorganized to me.
[02:47:35] DR. BAUTISTA:
>> _Disorganized?
[02:47:38] DR. JACKSON:
>> _I mean look at us --
>> _We’re synthesizing coma technology for astronauts she hasn’t even recruited yet.
>> _And even when she does recruit them, the probe’s not set to come back for another month. We don’t know what’s dimming the sun.
>> _Is that her next plan? To send astronauts to the sun?
[02:47:58] DR. BAUTISTA:
>> _You think that’s disorganized?
>> _She’s literally thinking twenty steps ahead. I don’t know what you mean. Even if we don’t have the data on the sun yet, we can still try to look for other solutions out there in space.
[02:48:12] DR. JACKSON:
>> _Out there in space?
[02:48:15] DR. BAUTISTA:
>> _I don’t know. I’m not an astrophysicist.
[02:48:19] DR. ▇▇▇:
>> _I have an audio log running, I don’t think now’s the best time to gossip.
[02:48:25] DR. JACKSON:
>> _Just edit it out later.
>> _What about you, ▇▇▇?
>> _What do you think about Stratt?
[ STATIC. ]
[ KEYBOARD TYPING. ]
[ SILENCE. ]
[02:48:45] DR. ▇▇▇:
>> _Subject status?
[02:48:48] DR. BAUTISTA:
>> _Subject is stable.
[02:48:51] DR. ▇▇▇:
>> _Nothing’s going to get in Stratt’s way.
>> _Good for humanity. Bad for the people around her.
[02:49:01] DR. JACKSON:
>> _How’d you get saddled into all of this, anyway?
>> _I hear you took some convincing.
[02:49:08] DR. ▇▇▇:
>> [ KEYBOARD TYPING. ]
>> _The convincing is downstairs in the mess hall eating ice cream.
[02:49:15] DR. JACKSON:
>> _Wait, that’s your kid?
[02:49:18] DR. BAUTISTA:
>> _Geez, Ethan. ‘You been living under a rock?
[02:49:22] DR. JACKSON:
>> _I don’t ask questions, alright?
>> _I see a girl running around the facility I think it’s one of the senators’.
>> _I didn’t know ▇▇▇ had a kid.
[02:49:31] DR. ▇▇▇:
>> _Now you do.
>> _Status?
[02:49:35] DR. BAUTISTA:
>> [ KEYBOARD TYPING. ]
>> _Ah, shit.
>> _Encephalogram is smoothing out but the delta wave amplitude is still dragging. It’s not locking into the hibernation state we need.
[02:49:48] DR. ▇▇▇:
>> [ LONG EXHALE. ]
[ SILENCE. ]
[ STATIC. ]
[02:50:02] DR. ▇▇▇:
>> _As the logs will corroborate across the past three cycles, the data suggests that while we can successfully induce a prolonged, deep comatose state without immediate cellular degradation, the threshold between true metabolic stasis and irreversible brain death remains narrow.
>> _We are trying to perfect a chemical suspension that can keep human beings alive, asleep, and entirely unmonitored for years in a deep-space environment.
>> _To be entirely frank for the record... the trials have a long way to go.
>> _That’s it for Phase 3-B. In the meantime, we will reconvene.
[02:50:41] DR. JACKSON:
>> _You guys wanna go out for lunch?
[02:50:45] DR. BAUTISTA:
>> _Very funny.
[02:50:48] DR. JACKSON:
>> _What? This great new place just opened. I think it’s called the West Side of the Facility?
[02:50:55] DR. BAUTISTA:
>> _Do you have a single serious bone in your body?
[02:51:00] DR. JACKSON:
>> _You? ▇▇▇? C’mon, let’s get drinks.
[02:51:04] DR. ▇▇▇:
>> _Can’t.
>> _I’m the division’s representative for tonight’s plenum.
[02:51:10] DR. BAUTISTA:
>> _I have literally never seen you outside of work.
[02:51:14] DR. ▇▇▇:
>> _Which makes me a good representative?
[02:51:18] DR. BAUTISTA:
>> _Which means you probably have five minutes before you drop dead.
[02:51:23] DR. ▇▇▇:
>> _That’s funny, Anne.
[02:51:26] DR. BAUTISTA:
>> _I got news from that plenum you’re going to attend, though.
[02:51:30] DR. ▇▇▇:
>> [ SHUFFLING. ]
>> [ FAINT THUD. ]
>> [ PAPERS RUSTLING. ]
>> _There is a difference between news and gossip.
[02:51:39] DR. BAUTISTA:
>> _Oh, c'mon.
>> _All I was going to say is I hear they’re recruiting more people. Making more divisions.
>> _They’re looking into microbiologists.
[02:51:50] DR. ▇▇▇:
>> [ FAINT LAUGH. ]
>> _I matched with a microbiologist once. On a dating app.
[02:51:56] DR. JACKSON:
>> _You’re on dating apps?
[02:52:00] DR. ▇▇▇:
>> _Was. Alright? It was a while ago.
[02:52:04] DR. BAUTISTA:
>> _And? Then what?
[02:52:07] DR. ▇▇▇:
>> _What do you mean, then what?
>> _Then I got shipped to the pacific and made to do all this work.
>> _I don’t talk to him anymore. I wish I still did.
[02:52:19] DR. BAUTISTA:
>> _Maybe you’ll meet a new one on the Taskforce.
[02:52:23] DR. ▇▇▇:
>> _Right.
[02:52:25] DR. BAUTISTA:
>> _No, c’mon. Maybe you will.
>> _I mean just this morning I saw a printout in the office.
>> _I think they’re planning to recruit this guy named Ryland Grace?
[02:52:38] DR. ▇▇▇:
>> [ OBJECTS CLATTERING TO FLOOR. ]
[02:52:41] DR. JACKSON:
>> _Dude.
[02:52:45] [ AUDIO END. ]
ⓘ The preceding transcripts were recovered from the central USS Kilauea auxiliary comms unit. The names of particular dependencies have been redacted in compliance with the International Non-Disclosure Act regarding the Petrova Event.
noir (the boys) x partially mute!reader / reader with selective mutism? they'd probably get along lol.
Caffeine
Black Noir x Male Reader
Summary: Ashley Barrett hired you to help when she wasn't around, and you did just that until you noticed a certain member of The Big Seven hanging around you more often.
A/N: Absolutely love getting requests asking for a reader with different 'disabilities' especially since I don't see that often. I'm also asking kindly for some angst requests, I just wanna see what you guys come up with.
TW: Fluff - Selective mutism - ASL
Ashley Barrett had presented the job as an opportunity, a way for you to contribute your skills when needed. Instead, it had devolved into a relentless cycle of servitude to the Seven. Every whim, every demand, no matter the hour or your current task, required your immediate attention. Homelander, in particular, seemed to relish summoning you for the most trivial matters, tasks he was perfectly capable of handling himself. His late-night calls to his penthouse became a dreaded routine, punctuated by his cruel taunts and constant reminders of your mutism, a vulnerability he exploited with chilling regularity.
The sole beacon in this oppressive environment was Noir. You'd noticed him from the periphery, a silent, watchful presence. Unlike the others, he always met your gaze when you signed, patiently deciphering your meaning. He never treated you as a mere errand boy, even though the nature of your employment was undeniably clear.
As the months bled together, you began to notice a pattern. Noir seemed to gravitate towards your space. A fleeting glimpse of his masked face peering into your office, a subtle shift in his posture as you walked by, a deliberate signing of a simple greeting instead of his usual cryptic notes – these small gestures bloomed in the sterile landscape of your work life. They brought a quiet smile to your lips, a fragile sense of worth in the face of constant degradation.
Tonight was no different. You were entombed behind a mountain range of paperwork, each sheet a testament to Ashley's relentless demands. Empty plastic coffee cups, casualties of your desperate battle against exhaustion, formed a precarious barricade around your desk. You raked a weary hand through your hair, the strands feeling brittle and lifeless. Lifting a half-empty cup, you tilted the dregs into your parched mouth, the bitter liquid doing little to rouse your leaden brain. Your eyelids felt heavy, your thoughts sluggish. The graveyard of spent pens on your desk served as a grim reminder of the hours you'd already poured into this Sisyphean task. The mere thought of facing Ashley's disappointed frown or, worse, Homelander's mocking derision if the work wasn't completed fueled a simmering resentment. It was well past midnight; the caffeine had long since abandoned you, leaving behind a bone-deep weariness and a powerful urge to simply collapse onto the cold office floor.
Pushing back your chair with a groan, you stood, your stiff limbs protesting the movement. The fluorescent lights of the hallway hummed monotonously as you shuffled towards the restroom. The reflection staring back at you from the mirror was a stranger – hollow-eyed, the skin beneath them bruised with fatigue. A sudden wave of claustrophobia washed over you, the starched collar of your button-down feeling like a noose. With a frustrated sigh, you fumbled with the buttons, shrugging off the offending garment and tossing it onto the counter. You untucked your t-shirt, finally allowing your body to breathe. After a brief respite at the urinal, you splashed icy water on your face, the shock momentarily cutting through the fog in your mind. The cool droplets clung to your stubbled skin as you made your way back to your office. Just before the doorway, you froze. A dark figure moved within the dimly lit space. Hesitantly, you pushed the already cracked-open door wider, your breath catching in your throat. It was Noir. He was silently gathering your discarded coffee cups, his movements fluid and efficient as he deposited them into a black garbage bag. "When did you get in here?" you signed, your eyebrow arched in surprise. He glanced up at you through the opaque lenses of his mask, offering a characteristic shrug before resuming his task.
Stepping fully into your office, you closed the door behind you, the soft click amplifying the sudden intimacy of the space. You sank back into your chair, your gaze fixed on Noir as he moved around the room, a silent, enigmatic presence. He placed a small brown paper bag on your desk, accompanied by two identical plastic cups from the local all-night coffee shop. Pulling a spare chair over to the front of your desk, he settled into it, placing one of the cups between you. "Hot chocolate," he signed, his gloved hands precise. "You consume too much caffeine. I can practically feel your heart pleading for respite." He crossed one leg over the other, reaching for his cup and carefully positioning the straw beneath his mask. You blinked, a flicker of disbelief in your eyes. Could he truly sense the frantic thrumming in your chest, a direct result of this unexpected act of kindness? "Thank you," you whispered, the sound so faint it barely registered in the quiet room.
Noir, remarkably, seemed to possess an innate understanding of the nuances of your mutism, the subtle shifts in your expressions, the almost imperceptible movements of your hands when you considered speaking. Still, your spoken words, especially directed at him, were a rarity, each instance causing a peculiar flutter within him. He watched as you opened the bag, your weary face softening with a genuine smile as you discovered the food he had brought. He knew that on nights like these, sustenance was an afterthought, easily sacrificed in the relentless pursuit of deadlines and fueled only by endless cups of coffee. "You have something," he signed, his gaze gentle. "Here." A gloved hand reached out, his thumb lightly brushing away a stray crumb that clung to your cheek as you devoured the bagel with an almost desperate hunger. You swallowed, the rich sweetness of the hot chocolate a comforting balm. The unguarded smile that now bloomed on your face was a sight Noir had come to cherish, a secret he guarded closely within the confines of his masked silence.
With the bagel and one cup of hot chocolate gone, you felt a renewed, albeit fragile, sense of energy. You returned to the stacks of paperwork, your focus sharper now. Occasionally, your gaze would drift towards Noir, who was now silently perusing the various trinkets and decorations displayed in your office cabinets and on the walls. His presence was a unique form of stimulation, a quiet anchor in the storm of your exhaustion. It was nearing four in the morning when you finally finished the last document. Noir was still there, now sprawled comfortably on the floor beside your desk, engrossed in a book he had selected from your shelf. A sigh of relief escaped your lips as you tidied your desk, the silence punctuated only by the soft turning of pages. You then joined him on the floor, the worn carpet a welcome respite against your aching muscles.
He looked up as you settled beside him, setting the book aside and turning his full attention towards you. You cleared your throat, shifting onto your side, your gaze fixed on the worn fibers of the carpet. "I... I appreciate you," you managed, the words barely a breath. Noir's hands moved, signing with a quiet sincerity, "It is nothing. I enjoy your company." A small, genuine smile touched your lips. "I enjoy yours too," you signed, your hands feeling slightly more confident now. "More than you could possibly know." Noir didn't respond immediately, his focus seemingly fixed on the fact that you had spoken more in the past few minutes than you often did in an entire week. "Say my name," he signed, his gaze direct. You instinctively moved to sign it, but he gently covered your hands with his, his touch sending a unexpected warmth through you. Understanding dawned, and you took a breath, the sound soft in the quiet room. "Noir," you whispered, the name a fragile melody on your lips. He let out a slow breath, his gloved hand rising to cup your cheek, his touch surprisingly tender before he slowly drew away. "I cannot tell what I enjoy more," he signed, his gaze lingering on your mouth. "The lingering scent of coffee on your breath... or the way your voice sounds when you say my name."
A low chuckle rumbled in your chest, a sound you rarely heard yourself make. "Perhaps," you signed, a playful light dancing in your eyes, "I will have to say it more often then, especially when it is like this."
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