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God, heβs so impatient. βBe ready at nineβ, he saidβ like what sick individual would say this to a college student? You should report him for psychological warfare, but speedrunning your morning routine has priority.
You rush down the stairs of your apartment building, shoving the keys into your pocket while praying that Scara is still there, waiting and not too pissed. Once the front door closes behind you, you hear a car horn blare. Your head whips in the direction of the noise and, of course, itβs him. Sitting in the car, smug expression, knowing he embarrassed you.
You open the car door and sit on the passenger seat, saving your sarcastic comment since heβs doing you a huge favor today. βHeyβ
Scara just shoots you a frown before starting the car. βYouβre late.β
A guilty feeling starts to build up in your stomach when you see his tight face. Heβs helping you and you kept him waiting. βI knowβ¦ Iβm really sorry, Iβm not used to waking up this earlyβ¦ I didnβt mean to make you wait for me.β
Scara sighs softly, the tension on his face easing. βItβs okay, Iβm not actually mad. Kinda expected it, to be honest.β
You shrink in your seat, a little embarrassed that he thinks of you like that, especially now that you proved him right.
He adds on. βDonβt be late again next time.β
βNext time???β You question, eyes wide, before you can even think about or process it.
His eyes widen slightly, and he doesnβt elaborate, eyes on the road. You decide not to say anything either, as to not make him snap at you again.
The two of you arrive at the cafΓ©, which looks really cozy on the inside. Maybe this study session wonβt be complete torture. You look around for a good spot. βIs this booth fine?β
You sit down and Scara hesitates for a few seconds before settling down next to you, leaving the seat in front of you empty. He takes out his laptopβ that you see for the first time ever by the way since he βdoesnβt need notesβ because note-taking is apparently beneath himβ and the philosophy book your professor recommended. Following his lead, you put your notebook and your pen on the table.
Before you can start studying, a waitress approaches with a friendly smile. βHello, what can I get you today?β
Scara gestures at you to go first. What a gentleman, consider yourself charmed.
Usually, youβd order a cup of cocoa, but you need some caffeine since someone made you get out of bed at this ungodly hour. βIβll take a cappuccino, pleaseβ
βA black coffee for meβ Either heβs really tired, or really tasteless.
Regardless, the two of you start studying. He opens something on his laptop βand waitβ¦ itβs the slides the professor doesnβt share?
You blink. How on earth does he have those? Did he sell his soul to the devil? Or to your beloved professor?
You lean over suspiciously.
βWhere did you get those?β
He doesnβt even look up.
Cryptic and stoic. Typical Scara behavior.
You donβt let it go easily.
βNo, but seriously, where did you get them?β
Scara sighs, like youβre being unreasonable.
βMy mom is a professor too. I made her ask for them. Now less talking about that and more studyingβ
Without any much-needed mental preparation for you, he starts out explaining all sorts of philosophy related things from the beginning of the semester, pointing at the presentation slides for emphasis. You start taking notes, occasionally asking questions when heβs going too fast or when something is too confusing.
He describes all these concepts and definitions with his calm and confident voice, his tone dipping when heβs a little unsure about something or rising when he talks about the things that interest him in that classβ itβs almost hypnotic. You hold on to every word he says, and yet it feels like a blur, like youβre watching him speak instead of listening to his explanations. Something about it is just so captivating. After a while you find yourself staring at the way he moves his hands while he talks, just enough to make his point but not too much where it becomes obnoxious. His hand moves a little closer andβ
βYn? Are you even listening?β Scara snaps his fingers in front of your face. You flinch out of your trance, blinking.
He cuts you off, sharply, βYou got distracted.β
You nod, apologetic look on your face. He drags out a long, exasperated sigh, but actually softens his tone. βI think you need a break, we already went over three lecturesβ
βYeah, a break would be nice.β The tension leaves your body at the idea.
Scara takes a look at your notes, examining them for a second.
And no reply, again. Scara really just straight up avoids questions he doesnβt want to answer with no excuse whatsoever.
Instead, he asks you a question, βDid you eat yet?β
βNo, I was in a rushβ¦β You chuckle nervously.
βMe neither, letβs buy something.β
The two of you walk up to the counter, scanning the display for something nice for breakfast. The pastries all look so delicious, youβre having a hard time deciding on what to get. Deep in thought about this very important decision, Scaraβs annoyed groan disrupts you.
βThey only have sweets. Ughhhh.β Yup, his taste is questionable.
You fail to bite back your comment, βNo shit, itβs a cafΓ©.β
His brow twitches, he smiles wryly. βCoffee is bitter, so the food here should be bitter, too.β
You snort, taking the opportunity to smartass him for once, βI fear itβs common knowledge that CafΓ© food is sweet, you know. You couldβve taken me to the library if you wanted something bitter.β
He looks to the side, mumbling, βI know, I just thought youβd like this place.β
You pause. You surely misheard, right?
You glance at him from the side, heβs still looking away as if he didnβt just say something oddly thoughtful andβ contrary to his bad taste in foodβ sweet.
βWellβ¦β, you start, trying to play it cool while he caught you off guard, βI do like it. Despite your suffering.β
Scara hums, barely suppressing a small smile. βGood. At least I donβt suffer for nothing.β
Your mind goes back to the pastries, but his comment lingers in your head. You get a slice of strawberry cake, he gets a plain croissant.
Back at your booth, you start eating in a comfortable silence, before Scara breaks it with a question. βSoβ¦Β why psychology?β
You glance at him, surprised at his sudden interest. βI guess I like figuring people out. Why they are the way they are. Itβs complicated, butβ¦ important.β
Scara hums. βSounds exhausting if anything. People do what they do, why they do it doesnβt matter in most casesβ
You shrug. βPeople always make more sense when you look at what theyβve been through. And I think it matters more often than you think. I mean, you chose this cafΓ©. Why? Because you wanted to do something nice for me. I think that sentiment does matter.β
He goes quiet for a moment, eyes fixed on his coffee.
ββ¦You read into things too much,β he mutters eventually.
βNow your turn. Why history?β
His shoulders relax a little, more comfortable with this topic. βItβs straightforward. Things happened, you just study why they happened. People say itβs just memorizing dates but thereβs patterns that repeat themselves because humanity doesnβt change.β
Ha. Contradiction spotted.
βOh, so the βwhyβ does matter in history, but doesnβt matter in psychology?β
He pauses, taking what you said into consideration.
βI guess itβs just on a larger scale in history?β
Now itβs your turn to think. βMaybe. You do like to analyze people, just not up closeβ
He rolls his eyes and smirks a little.
βStop trying to psychoanalyze meβ
The two of you go back to studying, going over the rest of the material. Itβs surprisingly easy when Scara explains it to you and not that arrogant professor who talks like everyone has a degree already. Hours slip by and the sun sets, so the two of you decide to call it a day. He makes sure to bring you home safely.
Once he parks in front of your apartment complex, he turns to you. βDo you feel like you actually understand more now?β
You nod, shooting him a grateful smile. βI do. You donβt know how big of a favor you did for me. Soβ¦ thank you.β
Scara looks away, as always. βDonβt mention it. At least youβre all caught up now.β
βThanks to you.β You add quickly. You still feel kind of guilty that he spent his whole day helping you, but he doesnβt look like he regrets it.
βSeriously, itβs nothing.β He says.
βI donβt care, Iβm still thanking you. And thanks for bringing me home, too.β
You unbuckle your seatbelt, grabbing your things, βAnyway, Iβm heading in. Goodnight, text me when youβre home!!β
He blinks, giving you a mildly confused look. βIβm a guy in a car, I think Iβm safe.β
You roll your eyes. βJust do it anyways.β
You step inside, trying not to think too hard about the fact that that actually went⦠really well.
summaryβ― It starts with a note in philosophy lecture. They sit together once, then again. Now theyβre texting, sharing notes, and maybe something else they wonβt admit. Minor in philosophy, major in denial.
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