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I'm afraid that this sudden happiness is too short-lived, yet it will take a long time to forget in the future.

I dunno what to react. He approached and asked for my help regarding his project. Should I smile and be happy for it is me whom he thought who can help him? Or should I be sad for being someone whom he needed at this matter and that's all we will ever gonna be? At the end, I helped him of course without any second thought. Even I was a bit busy. We're friends after all and he was once that someone whom I share my thoughts, rants and disappointments with. I still want him to be that someone but I know we cannot go back in the past. Why am I feeling this way? I thought I'm over him but it seems like he still matter especially the words that he'll say. Oh please spare me,

I practiced playing ukelele for few days and I'm glad I made a progress. I'm not posting the whole video thou

When a woman

While listening to sad slow music, plus not so good weather, I'm looking intently at his photo. He's fine, and happy and great with his family. There's really something wrong with me. Why? Why am I still waiting for him to come back when I can move on and never look back? Why am I still waiting for him to reach up when I know in his life I am out? Oh God, help me. I am so full of advices from my family but why? Why am I missing him so bad? It seems like without him, my life is just neutral, just good but not so great, ordinary not extraordinary and I hate it. I was not like this before! I hope one day, I can look at him straight in the eye without my feelings that I hid for quite time. I hope as this year ends, I can also end and put as history our memories and my feelings.

I told you everything happens for a reason

Two years ago, my dearest classmates handed me these letters which made my heart melt. I was just arranging my stuffs last night till my hand landed on this box. Actually, I read these letters every time I'm down or sad. I have bunch of boxes but this is my favorite among all.

Dearest,