nothing much

daughter (non-practicing)

sister (deadbeat)

I don't know where I'm going or what I'm doing. I'm waiting for something that doesn't exist and won't ever happen, and I don't even know what it is. Probably nothing at all. All that's certain is that it just ends in death and erasure

anyone else feel like there will always be a veil of separation between them and the rest of the world and that they’ll never actually be understood or is that just me

need to find more characters who avoid sex/dating not because they're asexual or because of sexual trauma but due to entirely unrelated lifelong psychological problems that have made them uninterested in acting upon desire or have a hard time feeling anything at all that isn't unrelenting grief. uh for a friend, not for me of course

(girl who has never told anyone anything) i must just be doing it for attention

FIRST step to enjoying any media is getting attached to the character whose suicidal tendencies are the most obvious

baby i could treat you so good you just have to get past my strange and off-putting demeanor and my kubrick stare and my inability to behave like a human and the 40 layers of icy fortress walls i have up and answer my riddles three

the epic highs and tragic lows of literally just being in my head on a perfectly normal day

a lot of life can be persevered thru by secretly playing pretend in your mind the whole time

there’s nothing wrong with me plus i don’t have any wants or needs plus i don’t feel or think at all

i am fine so long as i don’t remember i’m alive & a person